Politics

Social politics are undoubtedly the most important aspect of life, sure you can gloss over and say it's not important, but it plays a vital role in my life.
If someone smiled at me, I'd be obliged to smile back.
If I bumped into someone, I apologise when it's not my fault.
I try to keep a conversation flowing by being random, but it's not working too well.
Of course, think of me as fake, but I'm not actually fake. If you think about it deeply, you'll notice it's impossible to treat everyone the same way, that's just common sense.

This past year has been the worst, unmatched. But my life is crawling up slowly, so slow in fact it's dragging. But if you think about it, my life isn't so bad. I have parents who love me, a sister who is there for me and a brother who cares (in his own way), I also have good friends and other stuff.
But you could ask, what has this to do with social politics! Well...a lot actually, for too long, I've tried to be a good person, and failed miserably. A lot of my friends now, i.e. people I'm close with, in a fashion are all my friends due to these politics.
The people who I care about and shower my time on I care about. You can usually know I care about you by the amount of time I spend on you. There's some of you who I'd be with all day if I could.

But yeah so this year I've messed up, but I'm dedicated to making amends. I'm not the sort of person to break down and apologise to people, I can't do that, but I will always try and return the kindness of people.
A lot of people seem to think that I'm not a kind person, when if I look at myself...I'm not really unkind. I am selfish, I admit, but I am kind too.

As everyone knows, I'm not the most grounded person, I get low easily, quickly and often. When I'm happy, I'm ecstatic. When I'm sad I range from sombre to...well, I won't get into that. At the minute, I'm pretty sombre, I can laugh and joke when in this mood, I can be slightly happy in this mood too, which is a paradox in itself, but I don't pretend to be simple.

The world, sadly, isn't an ideal place. An ideal place for me would be somewhere idyllic, quiet, mountainous land where only people I like are alive...nice :)
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But this isn't my ideal world, there's no guarantee that anyone I fall in love with will love me back, I'm always gonna have ups and downs, I know this, I just gotta control the downs...lol ah that was a bitter realisation, sorry for the abundance of emoness!

Peace! x