I'm a moron

I've been saying:
"You've gotta come visit in spring and we'll go eat shaved ice! And I'll take you to Gion and we'll get drunk on sake!"

In reality, we'll never even see each other again will we?
It's the truth, we'll be on the opposite side of the world from each other, we couldn't be futher away.

I'm never gonna be with the person I love, ever, I'll be able to be friends with you for 4-10 year and then thats it, I'll be alone, well not alone, but I'll be empty.
And whats the point in loving, when it hurts you so much.

Cause right now it's hurting more than anything in the world, I hate love.
It's killing me...