Saturday 30 December 2006

Pet Hates =]

Hahaha I'm gonna post pet hates =]
Being ordered to do stuff, cracked paint, burnt pans, gates being left open, stubbing my toe, banging my knee, banging my head unexplained bruises, cuts, rashes, thinking about complicated stuff, maths, being bored, virus, add ware, spy ware, the blue screen of death, computer crashes, faulty computers, slow computers, stray dogs, my hair getting in my face, wet hair, greasy hair, litter, dirty tables at McDonalds, burger king and school ect, idiots, people talking to me when I'm on brb, falling asleep, spots on other people, drool, when I die on games, when I run out of time on games, when pages are ripped out of books, when I can't think of what to write, when people look at me, tests, maths tests, math games, math teachers, When I forget about things, people talking at me like I'm 5, people talking to me in real life when I've not had much sleep, techno music, the bird swarking relentlessly, techno music, people who fancy 50 Cent

-_- probably lots more -_-

Hâllo

Hâllo, oui, bonjour, mme. et m. bienvenue =]

Hahaha I'm happy =]
Just watched Beauty and the Beast, it sounds better in French though =..
La Belle et la Bête.
I think BATB is the best Disney film ever, it's so sweet =]
I hope people don't ever read too deeply into this film -_-
It's obviously just a sweet love story.

I hate Gaston -_-
I also just found out the horse is called Phillippe, LaFou means The Fool, Bele obviously means Beauty, every one should know that

Anyway bored now going on sims2


Buh-Bye

Tuesday 26 December 2006

Can't sleep, Clown will eat me

"Children! Behave!" Thats what they say when we're together... "And watch how you play!"

I'm kind-of tired but I can't sleep and I'm listening to 'I Think We're Alone Now' by Tiffany, of-course the Click-5 version is in there too =]

This song is so sweet, it reminds me of Natalie =]

God I love her so much, just wish she'd realise how much I appreciate her
I'm the luckiest guy alive, like ever, life is so fucking great right now =]
Last year christmas sucked, I was drowning in misery and I was all alone in a sea of fakes...

But, this year is totally different!
I don't remember being so happy, I have a girlfriend who is most beautiful, most intelligent, most poetic, most interesting person EVER!!
I mean everyword of what I say about her, theres never been a moment I've ever doubted me and her, apart from the part she called me a twat, but thats history, cause I know that I'm so totally smitten with her, and I know she loves me too!!!!!!!


I love 5:00am, I can think quite well, and I know that I'll just put whatever pops into my brain, what I feel in my heart, my doubts and what I'm sure about.

I'm totally bumming over my hair, it really looks good, I think so anyway.
I'm totally looking for the second day of 2007, a fresh start, and this year hasn't been exactly fantastic, I've been pretty depressed but 2007 is gonna be diffent, I'm gonna have a much more calm, sensible outlook to life, I've decided that I'm gonna write lots of new poetry, they need to be happy though, I have to much sad poetry, so, this years for me and you Natalie my love =]

Hahaha, I know that she hates being called Natalie, but I really think that name is beauitful, and she's a beautiful person, so it fits her I think, I've only known 2 other Natalies =P
They both suuuuuuucked, but, My Nat is different, I can't describe how much I LOVE her!!!

She makes me laugh, and cry, but I wish I could hug her when she's upset, or do something, Aw, I dunno something romantic, something brilliant.
Gosh, I can't think about it, JANUARY! JANUARY! JANUARY!

I think this is probably one of my longest blogs but it's one of the best for me, every word I type out is relieving me of things I wanna say but just can't find the heart to say.

I wanna be the type of guy that people read, and see in films and books even if I'm not that good, theres always hope, but I'm really content with Nat, I wish that I wasn't just a kid, I've decided that as soon as I get the money and oppurtunity to do so I'm moving to Ireland, for perminant, cause I can't bear to be away from Nat any longer, but each day I wake up, or every midnight that passes I know it's just one less day before I can be with her forever!

I can't wait, it's only just over four years! Then I'll be free to do as I please.
I'm going through college and then working through my gap-year, I was going to go travelling but, I'd rather work and that'd cut the time it takes me to move to Ireland.

Haha, I can't wait to meet her family, heysound like a great bunch of people =]
I have only one wish, though, but no matter how much I wish for it I know that without perserverence it'll never come true, my only want is to wake up on day, then realise I'd had a bad dream, and that I was't really here, and I'd walk out of the hosue and there she'd be =]

I know that I'm yapping on and being all annoying but it's all true, but even though I'd much rather be with Natalie, I could forget my friends, they're all so amazing!
"The only bands that've come out of Ireland are Westlife and [otherbandicantrememberthenameof]"
Hahaha, what about The Pogues mah Dear?

Anyway, it's taken up a well spent hour =]
But I really ant comments, and I really want kudos for having the guts to post this!

Love, Joel

PS. I've read loads of TDOAYGAF, it's a really good book, I'm up to Tuesday, 10th August 1943, and I've just read about the normal day in the Annexe. How I'd love to be in that annexe, everything seems so emotional and, I'd love to share Anne's feelings, she is....was a really brave girl, and I wouldn't normally read the diary of a girl but, it was her wish to have it published I guess... there are parts in the diary and it seems almost...surreal?
It's as if Anne isn't real, and this never happened, but of course the Haulocost happened, and of course she was a real girl, she seemed really intellectual as well, the Germans were a foolish race of people, no...Hilter was the stupid one, poor girl, I don't really know what happened to her, not really, I have seen the film of course, but out of that I only remember 3 parts hazily, they are:
1.) Her arguments with Dussel
2.) When she wakes Margot up to say she had her first period
3.) The German police breaking into the Annexe
And this is all I remember...
"I hope I will be able to confide everything to you, as I have never been able to confide in anyone, and I hope you will be a great source of comfort and support."
PSS. I just found myself taking 5 minutes finding my version of Anne Frank... pfft...!
BTW. Natalie I found you version of the book...

Saturday 23 December 2006

Aye...

I was looking on Postsecret, and this is how I feel so much right now:

Monday 18 December 2006

Drama!

Bonjour!
And without further adieu voilá:
WE WERE STARS!

Saturday 9 December 2006

Nosferatu

It's Half 7, and I'm bored and I've just watched Nosferatu eine Symphonie des Grauens.
It wasn't the best...
I wasn't scared at all! =[
I think that the ending was slightly random...
Nosferatu moved cool and the seen where he goes up them stairs!
I must have seen that part like 10 times, it was so well done that portion.
It wasn't bad to say it was made in 1922...
But the character names freaking sucked
I mean Thomas Huller instead of Jonathon?!
And Ellen instead of Mina!
But I understand why they had to change the names though...
It's okay though.

"The master is dead...!"

My desicion

Yeah, I'm sat here in the dark just thinking for countless hours and I'm listening to this song over and over.
I've come to a very important decision...
I fucking love her so much...
I don't actually know how to put my emotions for her into words...
Whenever I talk to her, I can't help but have an overwhelming feeling of...
Its not an emotion more of a gut feeling, that she's the one...
I can't help but pray that she was here with me.
When she's upset, I feel so deep into despair, and when she's happy I'm totally ecstatic...
I never was able to keep my emotions in check and now they're all over.
She is the most beautiful person I've seen, both physical and mentally...
I know that no matter home much I pray, whatever I know she'll not just get here...
But that's okay, cause as long as I'm with her I feel I can do anything.
I'd gladly die for this person, It makes me laugh, she thinks she loves me more, but she has no idea...
And now that I'm alone, I can't fucking sleep... I've totally lost my willpower and motivation.
Whenever she's not around I feel overwhelmed with depression and I know that as soon as her screen-name comes up, I'm happy.
To be truthful it's extraordinary, no-one has ever made me feel so happy.
Apart for a few other people she's the only reason I go on msn...
God, no-one has any idea what I'd give to be with her......I don't know what I'd do without, I know I couldn't live without her radiant personality.

We've been through a lot together, and each time the sun rises, I love her more.
I know this probably sounds stupid, but it's all true, I so fucking grateful to them two people...even though I don't get on with one of them, I really do thank the with my whole heart, because without the two people I wouldn't have ever met her...
Just thinking about life without her fills me with dread...

I can truly say that I'm the luckiest person alive.
And I fucking love her so much it hurts...

And my decision is that no matter what happens between us.

I'm determined not to screw up this.

I can't wait until January…

Thursday 7 December 2006

Cartoon Network Song

Lmao, I was just watching the CNS and it's hillaurious!

Trucker: So, where do you get the hair from?
Amy: My Roots...

Scene 2
Trucker: Your so cute I could eat you!
Amy: Whoa! Now thats just freaky!
*Amy backs away worriedly*

Amy Lee is just SO cute!!!
Sigh...I could just eat her up...

Wednesday 6 December 2006

Ugggghh

Hey,
God I don't feel well =[
'You poor, sweet, innocent thing'
I love this song, sad meaning though...
my eyes kill =]

Saturday 2 December 2006

New Poetry

Lithium
The summers light
It has been devoured by the fall
And these thick black clouds
The are crying acid tears

Chorus:
So dose me up on Lithium
'Cause I can't stand it anymore
Give me my overdose of Lithium
My favourite drug

The days are much more colder
Without your radiant smile
And now I've lost your gentle touch

Chorus

My mind is vaccant and useless
No way to find my love
Among the deep dark waters
And up in the castles of the skies

Chorus

Now...I won't ask once more
Give me my lithium
My overdose...
Of Lithium...
[REPEAT]
© J.Cartwright 2006

I wrote that song at the bus, along with the first verson My Emo Cloud [unfinished]
tell me what yoo think guys =]

Friday 1 December 2006

Dinner!

Today was f**king HILLAURIOUS!
Mia and Misa can testify.
1.) At dinner Leah came and sat wih us, we were all like *Ack!*
2.) God! It's like Niagra Falls sometimes ain't it just Mia?
3.) Misa was hiding her yogurt thingy when the top fell off, and Leah really went Pycho on eveyone
4.) I goes: "Leah will you go out with Fraiser?" and she went sick
and last but NOT least 5.) The race to sit next to Mia!