It's been a while, hasn't it!?! Oh my God.
So. I translated MiChi's song 「PROMiSE」 a while ago but never posted it...anywhere. :L
MiChi. She's really good. Her genre is very pop music. Very electronically influenced. From what I gather she's mainly a lyricist, but also a composer? Right? I dunno. She's bilingual too! So I guess this means there's little Engrish...except the PROMiSE part of the song sounds totally like "bromance".
I heard she was compared to Lily Allen, which isn't true at all. I don't think so either. I guess she's British? =D
Okay. Well. Enough of me, eh?!
(Italicised text was already in English! I've left it exactly as it appears in the original Japanese..unless it's horrendous I never correct their grammar.)
All I know is all this started back in 95
In the complete darkness I walked unsteadily my way
I'm searching for answers
Why do humans give up on their dreams?
You'll never know if today is your last,
So take a chance, yeah?
So, think and keep on going your way
GOD, TRUST life and our bodies,*
Trust in your perception
If you got questions, Go on
And keep on asking
LOVE keep giving it out,
Don't be scared of it
CHANCE will keep on coming
Look and grab it!
DANCE just loosen your bodies
Roll up your sleeves and have fun
Don't care what people think
Just keep on freaking with it
LAUGH like you really mean it
And give gratitude for today
Let's start with something, Hey! **
※Everyday is a new page
With this hand write a Story
The Feelings you felt that day,***
Remember them
Before they disappear.
When you feel like crying at night
I'll be with you through it
Don't forget:
Even at the end I'll be With you baby
All I know is someday you'll arrive at your goal****
Sometimes you feel it's impossible, but,
Always Believe in yourself
Every night you worry about tomorrow's problems,
But You know,
Thinking too much just causes anxiety, Hey yeah?
Look upwards and Keep on reaching higher
TRUST, GOD life and our bodies
Trust in your perception
If you got questions, Go on
Keep on asking
LOVE keep giving it out
Don't be scared of it
CHANCE will keep on coming,
Look and grab it!
DANCE just loosen your bodies
Roll up your sleeves and have fun
Don't care about what people think
Just keep on freaking with it
LAUGH like you really mean it
And give thanks for today
Let's begin immediately, Hey!
※ repeat
I won't give up on this PROMiSE
Until I see that smiling face,
I'll keep walking my way
I won't stop
(I won't stop)
Before they disappear
When you feel like crying at night,
I'll be with you through it
Don't forget
The answer is In you baby
※ repeat
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Translator's notes:
* When it says "GOD, TRUST --" I'm not sure whether she means God in the list or just as an expletive. I guess with next chorus she means God as in the list? Maybe? Answers on a postcard, huh?
** I translated this really appallingly so I quickly changed it, I don't know who did that part of my translation, but credit goes to JPopAsia.
*** Yes I know it's weird to capitalise feelings in the middle of a sentence but the original Japanese is "あの日のFeelings" and I wanted to keep it as true as possible.
**** I know I said I didn't correct grammar unless it was terrible...but the original English said "to your dream" which makes sense when the rest of that line is in Japanese.
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Hopefully next week I can translate some more. I've had a week from Hell, but today has been excellent! I'm well happy. ^^
I'll probably post more tomorrow but I won't swear on it! Actually I've wrote this and I feel like writing more. So I'm gonna.
Recently I've been into Chihiro Onitsuka a lot, she's really talented. She composes and writes the lyrics for her entire discography with only a few being re-composed with her past producer. She seems like she's been through a lot and she has a penchant for beautiful and moving lyrics.
My favourite song of hers would be infection and 蛍 (firefly). So pretty!
Most of her songs are ballads with a rock tinge. Very easy on the ears. Her voice is low and deep but has the characteristic nasally quality that Japanese singers have (particularly Yumi Matsutoya interestingly enough).
She's really good. Seriously. Her latest album DOROTHY is fantastic. Go listen. =D
Also! alan's sophomore album came out the other day...well leaked the other day and I managed to listen to it! It's a really good album with lots of electronic pop music on it. There's some REALLY unexpected stuff on there. A lot of people are complaining it sounds generic..but..I disagree! =D
I'll do a proper review this week.
Okay. That's all I have to say! So bye~! :)
Sunday 22 November 2009
Thursday 12 November 2009
Ramblings.
A year consists of 12 months.
A year consists of 52 weeks.
A year consists of 365 days.
A year consists of 8,765 hours.
Isn't it better to take things as they come to you daily? So far this is how I've lived my life. I'm rarely thinking about the future but at the same time it's constantly running through my mind.
It's a burden, eh.
It's staggering to stop and think that I've been alive roughly sixteen years. One hundred and ninety two months. Eight hundred and thirty four weeks. It doesn't even seem like that much but at the same time, can you imagine that?
Ever since September, when I starting college, I've planned to get a job. There's barely any jobs, there's a recession. Of course I should let that stop me, but I'm too inclined to laziness. That's really no good! I have to do my best for not just myself, but everyone I care about!
It's all good and proper me talking about such things, but what am I actually doing? It's time for me to carefully consider my life, consider the direction, consider the possibilities.
That's something I need to do, needed to do. It's something I have done.
Fortunately, I know exactly what I want from the future. But the line between hit and miss is very cutting.
I need the grades AAB. I need an A-level in language. What am I doing about that?
In a way, I've backed myself into a corner, but I'm not going to let everything go without a fight. Isn't that the spirit?!
GCSE German 2009-10
Sign language 2009-10
Sign language isn't particularly useful. I don't know anyone who's deaf any more. But doesn't it sound interesting, talking with your hands? Still, you never know when you need something! Right?
From GCSE German, I'm taking it to AS level. A2 level. That's what I need to do, there's no real choice in that.
「道に迷った時そして
道が遠すぎた時に
ひとりつぶやいていたよ
そんなものだと・・・」
-Who...
---
So, today I took a day off college, I feel really dreadful. Whilst being off, I've thought a considerable amount!
I'm really enjoying life, despite it being tough work with my terrible timing. It's really good. I'm really happy.
I'm actually really ill too. Man flu, huh?
It's a real problem. >_<
Okay. Today whilst thinking, whilst typing the above I decided that tomorrow I must go regardless. No matter what obstacle is thrown in my way, I have to work. I can't give up easily.
"When I hesitated
When I reached the point
Where there was no turning back
And cried, because I was afraid to stop
You said to me:
'What's sad, is that you're giving up.'
By only collecting, displaying and looking
At beautiful things,
And only having pleasant dreams,
Was I just lamenting reality?"
-Naturally
There seems to be lyrics that suit everything.
Oh, I applied for a job, I'm going to apply for more. I will get a job! Watch me, 'kay? ^_^
A year consists of 52 weeks.
A year consists of 365 days.
A year consists of 8,765 hours.
Isn't it better to take things as they come to you daily? So far this is how I've lived my life. I'm rarely thinking about the future but at the same time it's constantly running through my mind.
It's a burden, eh.
It's staggering to stop and think that I've been alive roughly sixteen years. One hundred and ninety two months. Eight hundred and thirty four weeks. It doesn't even seem like that much but at the same time, can you imagine that?
Ever since September, when I starting college, I've planned to get a job. There's barely any jobs, there's a recession. Of course I should let that stop me, but I'm too inclined to laziness. That's really no good! I have to do my best for not just myself, but everyone I care about!
It's all good and proper me talking about such things, but what am I actually doing? It's time for me to carefully consider my life, consider the direction, consider the possibilities.
That's something I need to do, needed to do. It's something I have done.
Fortunately, I know exactly what I want from the future. But the line between hit and miss is very cutting.
I need the grades AAB. I need an A-level in language. What am I doing about that?
In a way, I've backed myself into a corner, but I'm not going to let everything go without a fight. Isn't that the spirit?!
GCSE German 2009-10
Sign language 2009-10
Sign language isn't particularly useful. I don't know anyone who's deaf any more. But doesn't it sound interesting, talking with your hands? Still, you never know when you need something! Right?
From GCSE German, I'm taking it to AS level. A2 level. That's what I need to do, there's no real choice in that.
「道に迷った時そして
道が遠すぎた時に
ひとりつぶやいていたよ
そんなものだと・・・」
-Who...
---
So, today I took a day off college, I feel really dreadful. Whilst being off, I've thought a considerable amount!
I'm really enjoying life, despite it being tough work with my terrible timing. It's really good. I'm really happy.
I'm actually really ill too. Man flu, huh?
It's a real problem. >_<
Okay. Today whilst thinking, whilst typing the above I decided that tomorrow I must go regardless. No matter what obstacle is thrown in my way, I have to work. I can't give up easily.
"When I hesitated
When I reached the point
Where there was no turning back
And cried, because I was afraid to stop
You said to me:
'What's sad, is that you're giving up.'
By only collecting, displaying and looking
At beautiful things,
And only having pleasant dreams,
Was I just lamenting reality?"
-Naturally
There seems to be lyrics that suit everything.
Oh, I applied for a job, I'm going to apply for more. I will get a job! Watch me, 'kay? ^_^
Monday 19 October 2009
I try to uphold my promises, yo.
Hey guys~. ^_^
How be you all? :D
I'm feeling much better than when I last blogged, I've relieved myself of a huge weight. Haha.
So, today is the last week of college and then I have a week off!
すごいね？
So, today I watched Ayu's Stadium Tour 2002 in its entirety and even the editing didn't bother me! Ya~y!
I think that her ST02 performances of Free & Easy and HANABI were the absolute BEST. ^_^
That Union Jack dress is really gorgeous, she looks pretty hawt in it, ne? ^_-
Anyway, it's pretty cool!
Ever since I saw BEST FICTION TOUR, I've had the biggest obsession with Namie, she's so good. Which is surprising, before I saw BF, I didn't really like her except for some of the songs, but now I've realised she's REALLY good. I should maybe review her older works I disliked before, eh?
Oh! Also, I managed to snag two CDs from JPS by Hibari Misora, they're sooooo good, I'm really happy that I finally managed to get a studio version of 人生一路. One of my favourite songs~.
Speaking of Hibari-sama, I was able to sleep last night, so I translated two of her songs: 人生一路 and 川の流れのように.
Very badly mind you, I think the one I'm most proud of is Kawano. So I'll share that one with you, it has really touching lyrics...
There, isn't it a beautiful song (if you can see by my bad translating skills). ^_-
Well, there isn't much to share really, but I guess this constitutes as "happy" blog. ^_-
Also, in case you wanted to see, here's Jinsei too~.
See ya later~. ^o^
How be you all? :D
I'm feeling much better than when I last blogged, I've relieved myself of a huge weight. Haha.
So, today is the last week of college and then I have a week off!
すごいね？
So, today I watched Ayu's Stadium Tour 2002 in its entirety and even the editing didn't bother me! Ya~y!
I think that her ST02 performances of Free & Easy and HANABI were the absolute BEST. ^_^
That Union Jack dress is really gorgeous, she looks pretty hawt in it, ne? ^_-
Anyway, it's pretty cool!
Ever since I saw BEST FICTION TOUR, I've had the biggest obsession with Namie, she's so good. Which is surprising, before I saw BF, I didn't really like her except for some of the songs, but now I've realised she's REALLY good. I should maybe review her older works I disliked before, eh?
Oh! Also, I managed to snag two CDs from JPS by Hibari Misora, they're sooooo good, I'm really happy that I finally managed to get a studio version of 人生一路. One of my favourite songs~.
Speaking of Hibari-sama, I was able to sleep last night, so I translated two of her songs: 人生一路 and 川の流れのように.
Very badly mind you, I think the one I'm most proud of is Kawano. So I'll share that one with you, it has really touching lyrics...
Unconsciously, we're all walking north, on this long and slender road,
If we turn back, far away, over the distance we can see our homes,
Over this uneven road, over this ever-twisting road,
That not even a map, can tell us the direction of life.
Ah, like the river flowing slowly,
Many eras pass us by,
Ah, like a river flowing endlessly,
The sky is dyed with twilight.
We're living, we're travelling this endless road,
Our loved ones near our side, as we seek our dreams.
Even when the falling rain, makes this road muddy,
Someday, the day will come when all becomes clear once more.
Ah, like the river flowing calmly,
I want to entrust this body,
Ah, like the river flowing, the seasons change,
Whilst the snow waits to thaw.
Ah, like the river flowing calmly,
I want to entrust this body,
Ah, like the river flowing, we can always hear,
The blue stream murmuring.
If we turn back, far away, over the distance we can see our homes,
Over this uneven road, over this ever-twisting road,
That not even a map, can tell us the direction of life.
Ah, like the river flowing slowly,
Many eras pass us by,
Ah, like a river flowing endlessly,
The sky is dyed with twilight.
We're living, we're travelling this endless road,
Our loved ones near our side, as we seek our dreams.
Even when the falling rain, makes this road muddy,
Someday, the day will come when all becomes clear once more.
Ah, like the river flowing calmly,
I want to entrust this body,
Ah, like the river flowing, the seasons change,
Whilst the snow waits to thaw.
Ah, like the river flowing calmly,
I want to entrust this body,
Ah, like the river flowing, we can always hear,
The blue stream murmuring.
There, isn't it a beautiful song (if you can see by my bad translating skills). ^_-
Well, there isn't much to share really, but I guess this constitutes as "happy" blog. ^_-
Also, in case you wanted to see, here's Jinsei too~.
"Once you've chosen, you can never change your mind."
This is my philosophy of life.
Don't cry, don't hesitate, and surpass the anguish.
Humans can fulfill their desires.
Endure when the depth of snow buries you.
Wait for when the barley grows in spring.
Even when living exposes you to problems,
A human's disposition will get them through it.
With your heart, embrace the flames,
At full speed, walk your decided path,
Let's begin tomorrow, on life's only path.
The flower's troubles, in the wind they bloom.
This is my philosophy of life.
Don't cry, don't hesitate, and surpass the anguish.
Humans can fulfill their desires.
Endure when the depth of snow buries you.
Wait for when the barley grows in spring.
Even when living exposes you to problems,
A human's disposition will get them through it.
With your heart, embrace the flames,
At full speed, walk your decided path,
Let's begin tomorrow, on life's only path.
The flower's troubles, in the wind they bloom.
See ya later~. ^o^
Friday 16 October 2009
I'm gonna try blogging more!
My last blog was the 18th of last month, isn't that suuuch a long time ago? XD
It feels like years since I've blogged, but in fact it's only a few weeks.
I've been at college for over a month now, and I do actually enjoy it~, still my mood of late has just been going downhill like a landslide. Haha.
I'm gonna have to work on improving that mood, but I was talking about this with my mum (sorry to jump straight in at the deep end with this!) and she really got me thinking.
I'm the type of person who tries his best to please the greatest number of people as I can before I crash. I've always tried to be that person, even when it takes its toll on me, even though I've said that, I don't regret it. I love helping people with my all, I really do. It's just I never seem to be able to deal with my own problems.
We all have problems with our health, isn't that true? I mean...there's some people who get cancer, some people who get HIV and go on to develop AIDS, some people have arthritis.
I don't know what it's like to be told by a doctor I have cancer.
I don't know what it's like to get back some form of test results and be told the HIV I caught has worsened and I now have AIDS.
I don't know what it feels like to have your joints and bones ache constantly from arthritis.
But at the same time, it's normal to be physically ill, everyone at some point will get ill and as my mum pointed out, almost everyone will become mentally ill.
Whether it's something that stays with you the rest of your life, or something that goes away. It's the norm.
It's a hidden norm.
That's how I feel. Nearly three years ago my life went on a downward spiral, but even though I knew there was something not quite right with me, I just allowed people to let me believe I was lazy and uninspired.
I was ill, and that's something I still have to come to terms with.
This is controversial to say...but in a way...it's easy to deal with a physical illness, people today understand them.
Someone is brave for fighting cancer till the end, whatever that end may be.
How many people are brave for living their day-to-day life with a mental illness? People laugh at schizophrenics today, don't they.
But as my mum said, just because you can't see something is broken, doesn't mean to say it isn't real.
Mental illnesses, in my opinion, are somewhat worse than physical illnesses, in fact...just as I typed "physical" I typed out "real" instead. Even I find it hard to accept sometimes.
I'm not saying that people who deal with physical illnesses aren't brave, they are, incredibly. But there's no stigma to physical illnesses such as cancer.
Three years ago, depression crept up on me, I didn't notice the change, people around me maybe did, but I didn't see it myself. It was just normal for me at that time.
Now today I can sometimes see myself slipping back into that rut and it scares me. It really scares me a lot.
Sometimes I think 'This must be how a cancer patient in remission must feel.'
Then I berate myself, because I'm not "really" ill.
Talking to my mum was an epiphany. I realised that perhaps my depression will come back. It probably will come back. It might even be coming back right this second.
I had therapy for six weeks, which isn't that much, but it did help. But maybe that's not enough? To tell the truth it does scare me, my future scares me.
I don't want to be "crazy".
I can't honestly say I'm any happier than I was yesterday. I can't say I'm happy. But I know that there's things I can do, half the battle is getting help.
Even that isn't much of a comfort to me.
I have family members who I can talk to. I have the best friends in the world. But even that doesn't help me. Only I can help myself.
This blog doesn't make much sense. I'm sorry~! But I needed to get this stuff out of my mind. Haha.
This week, I've missed three days of college. That in itself makes me feel...so guilty. It makes me feel lazy.
But I've realised that I've not been lazy. I'm not making excuses, I've been ill. Just because I'm not coughing or sneezing doesn't make my pain any less real.
There's people far worse off than me and I can't imagine how they feel, I only know how I feel.
「これから始まって行く
私の物語は
不安と希望に満ちてる。」
-Depend on you
Changing 「ふたり」 to 「わたし」 is probably the best thing you could do to those lyrics because even though I have the support of everyone, when it boils down to it, you're the only one who can govern your actions.
I'll finish with some lyrics now, this blog post has dragged on too long already, the next one will be happier! I swear~! :)
「新しいドア明けて知らない場所へ出てしまっから
私は私だと言い切るから
そこがどんな場所でも生き抜いてよ
一生に一度の戦い挑むため。」
-SIGNAL
It feels like years since I've blogged, but in fact it's only a few weeks.
I've been at college for over a month now, and I do actually enjoy it~, still my mood of late has just been going downhill like a landslide. Haha.
I'm gonna have to work on improving that mood, but I was talking about this with my mum (sorry to jump straight in at the deep end with this!) and she really got me thinking.
I'm the type of person who tries his best to please the greatest number of people as I can before I crash. I've always tried to be that person, even when it takes its toll on me, even though I've said that, I don't regret it. I love helping people with my all, I really do. It's just I never seem to be able to deal with my own problems.
We all have problems with our health, isn't that true? I mean...there's some people who get cancer, some people who get HIV and go on to develop AIDS, some people have arthritis.
I don't know what it's like to be told by a doctor I have cancer.
I don't know what it's like to get back some form of test results and be told the HIV I caught has worsened and I now have AIDS.
I don't know what it feels like to have your joints and bones ache constantly from arthritis.
But at the same time, it's normal to be physically ill, everyone at some point will get ill and as my mum pointed out, almost everyone will become mentally ill.
Whether it's something that stays with you the rest of your life, or something that goes away. It's the norm.
It's a hidden norm.
That's how I feel. Nearly three years ago my life went on a downward spiral, but even though I knew there was something not quite right with me, I just allowed people to let me believe I was lazy and uninspired.
I was ill, and that's something I still have to come to terms with.
This is controversial to say...but in a way...it's easy to deal with a physical illness, people today understand them.
Someone is brave for fighting cancer till the end, whatever that end may be.
How many people are brave for living their day-to-day life with a mental illness? People laugh at schizophrenics today, don't they.
But as my mum said, just because you can't see something is broken, doesn't mean to say it isn't real.
Mental illnesses, in my opinion, are somewhat worse than physical illnesses, in fact...just as I typed "physical" I typed out "real" instead. Even I find it hard to accept sometimes.
I'm not saying that people who deal with physical illnesses aren't brave, they are, incredibly. But there's no stigma to physical illnesses such as cancer.
Three years ago, depression crept up on me, I didn't notice the change, people around me maybe did, but I didn't see it myself. It was just normal for me at that time.
Now today I can sometimes see myself slipping back into that rut and it scares me. It really scares me a lot.
Sometimes I think 'This must be how a cancer patient in remission must feel.'
Then I berate myself, because I'm not "really" ill.
Talking to my mum was an epiphany. I realised that perhaps my depression will come back. It probably will come back. It might even be coming back right this second.
I had therapy for six weeks, which isn't that much, but it did help. But maybe that's not enough? To tell the truth it does scare me, my future scares me.
I don't want to be "crazy".
I can't honestly say I'm any happier than I was yesterday. I can't say I'm happy. But I know that there's things I can do, half the battle is getting help.
Even that isn't much of a comfort to me.
I have family members who I can talk to. I have the best friends in the world. But even that doesn't help me. Only I can help myself.
This blog doesn't make much sense. I'm sorry~! But I needed to get this stuff out of my mind. Haha.
This week, I've missed three days of college. That in itself makes me feel...so guilty. It makes me feel lazy.
But I've realised that I've not been lazy. I'm not making excuses, I've been ill. Just because I'm not coughing or sneezing doesn't make my pain any less real.
There's people far worse off than me and I can't imagine how they feel, I only know how I feel.
「これから始まって行く
私の物語は
不安と希望に満ちてる。」
-Depend on you
Changing 「ふたり」 to 「わたし」 is probably the best thing you could do to those lyrics because even though I have the support of everyone, when it boils down to it, you're the only one who can govern your actions.
I'll finish with some lyrics now, this blog post has dragged on too long already, the next one will be happier! I swear~! :)
「新しいドア明けて知らない場所へ出てしまっから
私は私だと言い切るから
そこがどんな場所でも生き抜いてよ
一生に一度の戦い挑むため。」
-SIGNAL
Friday 18 September 2009
Long gap!
Hey people! Sorry for the humongous gap. T____T
So, college is going pretty well, I have some homework which I'll do later... I swear! :D
Lately I've been writing a lot, isn't that cool? ^o-
Yeah, I've been experimenting with different lyrical styles and the like. It's actually pretty fun but it hasn't really come into much fruition really. Laaaaaa～me.
Well...I don't actually have that much to report.
Today I FINALLY got pictures of a double decker. Man that was fortuitous. I didn't expect to see one. XD
I'm starting to think that classics is perhaps way better than history, or maybe they're on par with each other.
I'm really boring, aren't I??? Daaaaaamn. ;)
I've really started liking techno stuff lately, it's totally out of character, isn't it? For instance... I've been listening to capsule, MEG and POLYSICS. <3
Oh well. ;D
I found some photos on my phone I somehow DIDN'T upload, shocking isn't it? They're pretty recent actually, look:
Also this one of Baxter that makes me laugh:
Sunday 6 September 2009
Sleeping Issues
It's four in the morning here, and I'm having a little trouble sleeping! Don't you just hate it when you can't sleep? :\
Well, I haven't really got a lot to share. But the opticians rang me when I was in bed yesterday morning, oops. I'll see 'em Monday, cuz ho～pefully I'm going to pick them up then! :DMan, I actually feel kinda bad over those, they're really expensive, can someone explain to me when and why glasses got and are so expensive? They're just plastic. >_<
They were like...£80... *gulp*
Anyway! When I woke up on Saturday, my ear was in soo~ much pain. I tried the olive oil and it was okay...but then I noticed some sort of static-sound in my ear. xP
So anyway, when I took out the cotton wool, and went for a bath to wash out the oil. Baaaam!
It currently hurts so bad. Haha.
Basically, I think that my doctor is such an idiot. >_<
When I went as I probably said, he just told me to take ibuprofen for the pain and then soak my ear in warm olive oil.
- He never told me how long to leave in the olive oil.
- He never told me how long I have to use the olive oil.
- He never told me to make another appointment.
I'm seriously pissed out. I think I'm gonna change my GP at some point this year, 'cause his services are really unhelpful. Like he was looking at my file and he was like "Do you have any learning difficulties?"
And I was like... "Huh? What?"
"Well, there's a referral to the child and adolescent unit."
So...I explained HE made that referral over depression and that was sorted. Jeeeeeeze. It comes to something when your doctor doesn't even know himself what he's done/doing. >___<
Pisses me off.
So anyway, yeah he gave my ibuprofen. I'm not meant to take over 6 a day. But man. They aren't even helping with the pain except numbing it a little...
Before I washed out the oil, I took two, and then when I got out of the bath nearly 30 minutes ago, they hadn't even helped...only after taking another two did they kick in. How ridiculous is that?!
Man. If my ear isn't any better tomorrow, I'm definitely going to the ER, cause man. I have college Tuesday and I REFUSE to miss my first few days. >_<
OH! And he never even said what was wrong with my ears... so I don't even know myself. LOL
Ugh. Doctors. >_<
Friday 4 September 2009
As promised...
(btw...I don't think facebook notes are awesome enough to see the picture of my student ID. ^_-
So click here: http://learningjapaneseishard.blogspot.com)...Here's a blog! Man, you lucky people!
Okay, so this week has been busy, preparing everything for college, etc.
Optician front: STILL not been rang about my specs, I'll have to call in with the money at some point before Tues. cuz tbh, I really need them for college, I don't want my eyes to diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeee! y_y
Which leads on nicely to...COLLEGE. So, I enrolled yesterday...it went pretty well, except I expected to be there no more than three hours. Man was I wrong. We got to town at 10:00 AM, I got home close to 06:00 PM. >_<
Is that not messed up~?!
I think so...anyway. LOL
Sooo I got my schedule sorted...mostly, apparently key skills needs working out cause they FAIL at running the college. LOL
...I got my student ID sorted out...
What was that?
...Nothing...
My student ID is AWFUL. It's worse than my MI card's photo.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ The glorious MI card. >_<
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
My God-awful student ID. I'm having that fucka renewed ASAP. Note: the distance from camera. >_______<
Seriously though, I don't thi___nk I've had a photo as bad as the ID one. T_T
Doesn't it suck? ANYWAY! I got my timetable done there-and-then! D:
ほら～～～！
Yep, it's ALREADY creased. I fail at life. >_<
I'll just wallet-fy it. ^_-My timetable is this. <<< Clicky the link! ^_^
I think the last of my news is...about my ear, right? My ear is fine apparently, I just need some ibuprofen for the pain (yaaaaaay free ibuprofen!) and then put olive oil in my ear for about a week. Ewww...greasy ear. >_____<
Lame. Anyway that's it for now, I must remember to get a dentist appointment sometime... =\
That's all...bye-bye!
バイバイ！P.S. the lovely banner is courtesy of the lovely Sakura_Genki of AHS!
Wednesday 2 September 2009
Let's Start Over.
Yooooo~!
So, I've not blogged in absolutely AGES. Mainly cuz no one reads this! (ToT)
But that's not important. So, anyway, regardless of who reads this (or not). I'm gonna blog more regularly.
So. Hi. ^_^
So, today is the second day of autumn~! Yay for autumn!! I've grown really bored of summer now. >_< I hope everyone has a good time at college, school, university, etc. I enrol at my new college on Thurs. this week and then I start on the Monday. >_< 怖いだね？
頑張って皆！^_^
So...news, news, news. Nothing really new, mainly 'cause I'm the most boring person ever. y_y
Oh! I now have to wear glasses. -(^)_(^)-
Just for reading though, my optician said that my eyes were like: x_^
My right eye is weaker than my left~. Unlucky. Oh well. :P
So...I'm gonna try and post >_at least_< once a week! But other than that, I have nothing new to report. P.S. I really like alan lately, she's a good singer. sifow is also pretty good!
P.P.S. I'm ill! *cough* y_y I have an ear infection, I guess. I'm off to the doctor's on Friday to see~. I'll probably post then let everyone (no one) know what's going on. ^_~
So, I've not blogged in absolutely AGES. Mainly cuz no one reads this! (ToT)
But that's not important. So, anyway, regardless of who reads this (or not). I'm gonna blog more regularly.
So. Hi. ^_^
So, today is the second day of autumn~! Yay for autumn!! I've grown really bored of summer now. >_< I hope everyone has a good time at college, school, university, etc. I enrol at my new college on Thurs. this week and then I start on the Monday. >_< 怖いだね？
頑張って皆！^_^
So...news, news, news. Nothing really new, mainly 'cause I'm the most boring person ever. y_y
Oh! I now have to wear glasses. -(^)_(^)-
Just for reading though, my optician said that my eyes were like: x_^
My right eye is weaker than my left~. Unlucky. Oh well. :P
So...I'm gonna try and post >_at least_< once a week! But other than that, I have nothing new to report. P.S. I really like alan lately, she's a good singer. sifow is also pretty good!
P.P.S. I'm ill! *cough* y_y I have an ear infection, I guess. I'm off to the doctor's on Friday to see~. I'll probably post then let everyone (no one) know what's going on. ^_~
Wednesday 19 August 2009
This World.
This world is rotting,
With everyone dwelling,
In the slums of society.
With everyone living,
Lives that nauseate.
Just when I thought,
I could regain, my trust in people,
It's knocked back down so fast.
What is it I'm asking for?
What is it I'm searching for?
I think it's all too much.
This "beautiful" world
Ah...makes me sick to the core.
Is there any love or purity,
In such a malignant place?
I'm starting to lose hope.
In this pathetic earth.
Just when I thought,
I know this life, isn't so bad, right?
You show me pitch black light.
What is it I'm expecting?
What is it I an needling?
All I get disappoints.
How easy we can say that we love humanity.
How easy we can say that people are kind.
Don't you see? Look! This world is foul.
Can't you see? Look! This world is making me,
More jaded than ever.
What is it I ask?
What do I search for?
What do I expect?
What is it I need?
Love conquers all, they say,
Well I see no love.
I see not one germ of kindness,
In anybody's heart.
Make peace over war, it's said,
I can't get no peace,
When people fight in the street,
Over the most pathetic thing.
Am I asking the right questions?
Am I searching in the right places?
Am I expecting the correct results?
Am I needing the right things?
Even my simple questions,
Have no honest answer,
In a world of liars, I'm trying,
Trying to believe this place is good.
--------------------------------------------------------
Sorry I never post! It's just I've been really lazy. Haha.
I get my exam results on the 27th! I might blog then, but I doubt it. XD
Hopefully I start college soon! Wish me luck~!
With everyone dwelling,
In the slums of society.
With everyone living,
Lives that nauseate.
Just when I thought,
I could regain, my trust in people,
It's knocked back down so fast.
What is it I'm asking for?
What is it I'm searching for?
I think it's all too much.
This "beautiful" world
Ah...makes me sick to the core.
Is there any love or purity,
In such a malignant place?
I'm starting to lose hope.
In this pathetic earth.
Just when I thought,
I know this life, isn't so bad, right?
You show me pitch black light.
What is it I'm expecting?
What is it I an needling?
All I get disappoints.
How easy we can say that we love humanity.
How easy we can say that people are kind.
Don't you see? Look! This world is foul.
Can't you see? Look! This world is making me,
More jaded than ever.
What is it I ask?
What do I search for?
What do I expect?
What is it I need?
Love conquers all, they say,
Well I see no love.
I see not one germ of kindness,
In anybody's heart.
Make peace over war, it's said,
I can't get no peace,
When people fight in the street,
Over the most pathetic thing.
Am I asking the right questions?
Am I searching in the right places?
Am I expecting the correct results?
Am I needing the right things?
Even my simple questions,
Have no honest answer,
In a world of liars, I'm trying,
Trying to believe this place is good.
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Sorry I never post! It's just I've been really lazy. Haha.
I get my exam results on the 27th! I might blog then, but I doubt it. XD
Hopefully I start college soon! Wish me luck~!
Wednesday 17 June 2009
My new songs/poems
My first proper song in God knows how long...
It's called Babylone, for obvious reasons!
In my mind, I see the ruins
Of an era of the past
I hear the rumbling of a din
From an age gone by.
I bet when you saw,
The future from way back then,
You'd never realise,
Not for one second
It'd be in ruins in a year.
When I look back,
I see with hindsight,
Things were never meant to be.
The battlements of a castle,
Those were our pride,
Slowly, slowly, they've come
To be the ruins of us,
A friendship built from sadness.
I bet when you saw,
The future from way back then,
You'd never realise,
Not for one second,
It'd be in ruins in a year.
Maybe it's better, the vultures,
Perched on our souls, picking
At the flesh of our mind.
If they can salvage anything,
It's better that way.
It's sad, isn't it? That a city must be
Completely destroyed. But I've entrusted,
Myself to the flow of time.
Goodbye, I'll leave this to be
A Babel of the modern day.
I'll leave it to become beautiful,
In a rather stark way.
I bet when you saw,
The future from way back then,
You'd never realise,
Not for once second,
It'd be in ruins in a year.
---
XX
(Poem)
To you, who I love: Sayounara
To you, who I crave: Arigatou
To you, who I miss: Suimasen
Good bye to my love, the most enduring ache.
Thank you for our moments. The ones we had, and those we never will.
I apologise to you, for every stinging word, you took with so much grace.
You will forever me my greatest love, and my greatest lament.
Even though our love was a rose that rots and never blooms.
The love I had, it made me stronger that I'd ever been before.
Forever it will be, my most precious thing.
So from this moment, we will walk apart.
Our backs together, my head held high.
The scar within my heart, is finally free to heal.
---
Windows
In front of my face
A door slams shut
Behind me, I hear the door
To a future creak, open, open.
In my bones, I feel it,
The anticipation, it's killing,
It's killing me.
Down my skin, it strikes,
Like an evil mist, I'm paralysed
Paralysed from head to toe.
When did I last fear? When was
Failure ever this close to joy?
The door jammed shut.
I cannot go back,
My only wish is for you to,
To, please hold my hand?
---
Liar
When I realised, the songs I heard,
They were all sung about you, for you.
When I realised, all the poems I wrote,
It all described you, your memory.
I want to break it all, rip it all to shreds.
When I realised, the anger I had towards myself,
It was all aimed at you, but I could never be angry to you.
When I realised, all my melancholy days,
They were all because of you, even though I could never blame you.
I want to stop it all, I'd rather never feel again.
If I realise I'm thinking of you,
Should I be happy or sad?
I'd like to remember your scent,
And smile with fondess it once filled my air.
I'd like to remember your taste,
Which once lingered on my lips.
I wish I could breathe out the fragrance.
I want to spit out your taste.
I want to wish for your happiness,
But I want it to never last.
I want to break it all, rip it all to shreds.
I want to stop it all, I'd rather never feel again.
I wish I could breathe out the fragrance.
I want to spit out your taste.
You were never mine.
But I was always yours.
I cannot be happy for the two of us.
And for that I'm truly sorry.
---
I'm really unhappy with it.
Oh well, there's also a new poem in my MySpace blog, and an even newer poem on AHS. :)
Exams are over, I'm really happy. I've not blogged in so long.
Since I last blogs, friendships have bloomed, friendships have wilted. I'm happy have the first, at most indifferent at the last. People going doesn't impact me, people coming does.
Get my exam results in August! Good luck to EVERYONE I know. Even if I dislike you. :)
College in September? I hope so. I'm a little sad at the minute. But all it going well for me.
I love life at the minute, really. :)
My future...heck...I HAVE a future. Uh...I'd like to give a special thanks to HANNAH for being on MSN to give me various information about exams and school.
A thanks to LAURA for just being Laura.
A thanks to SARAH for being there for me through everything*
A thanks to JESS for being JESS too. Which means I have to make her read this. ;D
Too bad Jess, too bad. :D
Er...I'm currently really liking enka. Someone from AHS uploaded a Misora Hibari album for me! So I'm in love!
Currently, I'm rereading Mineko Iwasaki's autobiography.
*Sarah! Thank you for sending me cool stuff again. We're definitely sending off your package when my dad gets his wage! :)
Sorry for the tremendous lag. She sent me: Animal Crackers, spiced cider mix, pomegranate fragranced conditioner (which is lovely by the way), and a suede pouch! Thank you for that~!
So...that's it for now. A rather rushed update! Baibai!
It's called Babylone, for obvious reasons!
In my mind, I see the ruins
Of an era of the past
I hear the rumbling of a din
From an age gone by.
I bet when you saw,
The future from way back then,
You'd never realise,
Not for one second
It'd be in ruins in a year.
When I look back,
I see with hindsight,
Things were never meant to be.
The battlements of a castle,
Those were our pride,
Slowly, slowly, they've come
To be the ruins of us,
A friendship built from sadness.
I bet when you saw,
The future from way back then,
You'd never realise,
Not for one second,
It'd be in ruins in a year.
Maybe it's better, the vultures,
Perched on our souls, picking
At the flesh of our mind.
If they can salvage anything,
It's better that way.
It's sad, isn't it? That a city must be
Completely destroyed. But I've entrusted,
Myself to the flow of time.
Goodbye, I'll leave this to be
A Babel of the modern day.
I'll leave it to become beautiful,
In a rather stark way.
I bet when you saw,
The future from way back then,
You'd never realise,
Not for once second,
It'd be in ruins in a year.
---
XX
(Poem)
To you, who I love: Sayounara
To you, who I crave: Arigatou
To you, who I miss: Suimasen
Good bye to my love, the most enduring ache.
Thank you for our moments. The ones we had, and those we never will.
I apologise to you, for every stinging word, you took with so much grace.
You will forever me my greatest love, and my greatest lament.
Even though our love was a rose that rots and never blooms.
The love I had, it made me stronger that I'd ever been before.
Forever it will be, my most precious thing.
So from this moment, we will walk apart.
Our backs together, my head held high.
The scar within my heart, is finally free to heal.
---
Windows
In front of my face
A door slams shut
Behind me, I hear the door
To a future creak, open, open.
In my bones, I feel it,
The anticipation, it's killing,
It's killing me.
Down my skin, it strikes,
Like an evil mist, I'm paralysed
Paralysed from head to toe.
When did I last fear? When was
Failure ever this close to joy?
The door jammed shut.
I cannot go back,
My only wish is for you to,
To, please hold my hand?
---
Liar
When I realised, the songs I heard,
They were all sung about you, for you.
When I realised, all the poems I wrote,
It all described you, your memory.
I want to break it all, rip it all to shreds.
When I realised, the anger I had towards myself,
It was all aimed at you, but I could never be angry to you.
When I realised, all my melancholy days,
They were all because of you, even though I could never blame you.
I want to stop it all, I'd rather never feel again.
If I realise I'm thinking of you,
Should I be happy or sad?
I'd like to remember your scent,
And smile with fondess it once filled my air.
I'd like to remember your taste,
Which once lingered on my lips.
I wish I could breathe out the fragrance.
I want to spit out your taste.
I want to wish for your happiness,
But I want it to never last.
I want to break it all, rip it all to shreds.
I want to stop it all, I'd rather never feel again.
I wish I could breathe out the fragrance.
I want to spit out your taste.
You were never mine.
But I was always yours.
I cannot be happy for the two of us.
And for that I'm truly sorry.
---
I'm really unhappy with it.
Oh well, there's also a new poem in my MySpace blog, and an even newer poem on AHS. :)
Exams are over, I'm really happy. I've not blogged in so long.
Since I last blogs, friendships have bloomed, friendships have wilted. I'm happy have the first, at most indifferent at the last. People going doesn't impact me, people coming does.
Get my exam results in August! Good luck to EVERYONE I know. Even if I dislike you. :)
College in September? I hope so. I'm a little sad at the minute. But all it going well for me.
I love life at the minute, really. :)
My future...heck...I HAVE a future. Uh...I'd like to give a special thanks to HANNAH for being on MSN to give me various information about exams and school.
A thanks to LAURA for just being Laura.
A thanks to SARAH for being there for me through everything*
A thanks to JESS for being JESS too. Which means I have to make her read this. ;D
Too bad Jess, too bad. :D
Er...I'm currently really liking enka. Someone from AHS uploaded a Misora Hibari album for me! So I'm in love!
Currently, I'm rereading Mineko Iwasaki's autobiography.
*Sarah! Thank you for sending me cool stuff again. We're definitely sending off your package when my dad gets his wage! :)
Sorry for the tremendous lag. She sent me: Animal Crackers, spiced cider mix, pomegranate fragranced conditioner (which is lovely by the way), and a suede pouch! Thank you for that~!
So...that's it for now. A rather rushed update! Baibai!
Friday 15 May 2009
野に咲く花のように
On Monday my exams start, well, not just mine, everyone's.
To tell the truth, I'm really nervous about them. I think I'll do okay though.
After I finish this blog, I'm going to revise so much. I'll revise all day Saturday and Sunday too.
After my fourth exam I can breathe a little, but then back into the fray with more exams. Should be fun, right?
Well, I'm going to try my hardest because I have something to work towards.
I've realised that I can finally connect with Gackt's song "No ni Hana Saku no you ni" which translates to "the flowers blooming in the field."
Now that I'm so close to leaving I can almost taste it. Every breath is filling my lungs more and more with the scent of it. Haha.
The lyrics are very nostalgic. Very melancholy.
"No one has engraved their name in the ground beneath the cherry trees,
So let's make a promise,
To come back here someday and do that.
Like the flowers that bloom in the corner of the school yard,
Where the echoing of the school bell can be heard,
I want to express to you, who smiled gently for me,
A simple 'Thank you.'
One of these days, we'll meet here again.
Until that day...
I want you to grow strong, and never give up,
Like the flowers that bloom in the field.
The road we got so used to walking down,
And the scenery we got so used to seeing,
With a smile on your face, and tears in your eyes,
You said 'I'll remember them forever.'
We got used to always seeing, the setting sun colouring the rows of cherry trees.
And as we began to walk to the future,
We'll hold onto each and everyone of these memories in our hearts.
Until you reach the place you envisioned,
Don't ever give up.
You are flowers yet to be named,
But I want you to grow stronger and never give up no matter what."
There's more, but that's the really sad part. Haha. It's a coincidence considering that there's now a line of cherry-blossom trees outside school. o.O
So, yes. I'm feeling a little nostalgic. Strangely enough I'll miss that place, even though I've already left. I think I'll miss the people more than anything.
They say that as you grow older, you find yourself in different social groups, I think it's very true. It makes me wonder just how many of my friends I'll still be in touch with.
Different circumstances, different goals, different dreams, different paths.
But I don't think I'll ever forget anyone, even if we do eventually part. Haha.
That's an overly sad way to look at things, right?
Even so, sometimes it's good to be pessimistic, eh? XD
In other news, I'm totally in love with Gackt again. I think I'm gonna marathon him for a few weeks mainly to get his play count further up along my last.fm charts. XD
I think that's it. Hopefully I'm going to get to finish some poetry later. I feel in the mood for writing a "good bye" poem. XD
To tell the truth, I'm really nervous about them. I think I'll do okay though.
After I finish this blog, I'm going to revise so much. I'll revise all day Saturday and Sunday too.
After my fourth exam I can breathe a little, but then back into the fray with more exams. Should be fun, right?
Well, I'm going to try my hardest because I have something to work towards.
I've realised that I can finally connect with Gackt's song "No ni Hana Saku no you ni" which translates to "the flowers blooming in the field."
Now that I'm so close to leaving I can almost taste it. Every breath is filling my lungs more and more with the scent of it. Haha.
The lyrics are very nostalgic. Very melancholy.
"No one has engraved their name in the ground beneath the cherry trees,
So let's make a promise,
To come back here someday and do that.
Like the flowers that bloom in the corner of the school yard,
Where the echoing of the school bell can be heard,
I want to express to you, who smiled gently for me,
A simple 'Thank you.'
One of these days, we'll meet here again.
Until that day...
I want you to grow strong, and never give up,
Like the flowers that bloom in the field.
The road we got so used to walking down,
And the scenery we got so used to seeing,
With a smile on your face, and tears in your eyes,
You said 'I'll remember them forever.'
We got used to always seeing, the setting sun colouring the rows of cherry trees.
And as we began to walk to the future,
We'll hold onto each and everyone of these memories in our hearts.
Until you reach the place you envisioned,
Don't ever give up.
You are flowers yet to be named,
But I want you to grow stronger and never give up no matter what."
There's more, but that's the really sad part. Haha. It's a coincidence considering that there's now a line of cherry-blossom trees outside school. o.O
So, yes. I'm feeling a little nostalgic. Strangely enough I'll miss that place, even though I've already left. I think I'll miss the people more than anything.
They say that as you grow older, you find yourself in different social groups, I think it's very true. It makes me wonder just how many of my friends I'll still be in touch with.
Different circumstances, different goals, different dreams, different paths.
But I don't think I'll ever forget anyone, even if we do eventually part. Haha.
That's an overly sad way to look at things, right?
Even so, sometimes it's good to be pessimistic, eh? XD
In other news, I'm totally in love with Gackt again. I think I'm gonna marathon him for a few weeks mainly to get his play count further up along my last.fm charts. XD
I think that's it. Hopefully I'm going to get to finish some poetry later. I feel in the mood for writing a "good bye" poem. XD
Monday 11 May 2009
"It was the end of your dream, and the start of everything."
Wow. Have I really not blogged since April? Gosh. Well, I have a long update for you (lucky or what?)!
So, I'm pretty sure I didn't mention the result of my:
a.) College interview
b.) Blood/water results
c.) Everything else.
So, first off, I had my college interview...weeks ago. It went well! I have a place as long as I get my five Cs, easy! I already have two. XD
So. I'm going to work really hard now. :)
Now, my doctor's appointment went well, everything is fine. :)
Everything else...
I got an A for my English lit coursework so I'm really, really pleased with that. So thank you, Sarah, for all your help! :D
Currently I'm reading Of Mice and Men. But I realised I left it in the car. Damn. I'll just focus on poetry and maths until then. XD
There's actually...not a lot of interesting things going on at the minute other than revision.
I went to Maria's party on Saturday and it was fun! I danced. Yes. I danced...badly. Actually can you really call that dancing~?? I think not.
Let's see...I danced with...
Maria, Charlotte, Laura, Abbey, Marisa, Andrew...then...maybe Stef and Hannah? I can't remember. Way too many people. ^o)
But yeah. I made Maria cry (sorry!!!!!) I have a knack at making people cry. :D
Like when I told Sarah she needed chemotherapy. :)
She loves me really...!
So...Maria's party is covered. Now onto revision?
So I've decided that from now onwards. I'm going to dedicate myself to saying "Adieu" to the past five years of my life. I'm saying goodbye to that school, a lot of people as well.
But. I definitely don't wanna see my friends go. Seriously. Never ever. :(
Definitely I'm going to keep in touch with Maria and Laura. Then I'm wanna keep in touch with Charlotte...Dani...Hannah...all the brilliant people I've met, there's too many people to name.
So...now it's time for the emotion-fest. XD
Laura:
I've known you since you pushed me off a bench. We've been friends ever since, yeah, we've fallen out. I've been a jerk. But you've always been for me in the end. :)
You're one of people who makes me laugh the most and puts me in a permanent good mood.
I think you've made the past five years a really good time for me. I shall never stop bugging you. :D
Maria:
Maria, seriously. Where to start? XD
We've been friends for a...a long time and we've been through a lot. You've been there for me a hell of a lot too, and you've made me the person I am today. Like I've said before: you're beautiful inside AND out. There's so many happy memories with you for me. Particularly the quarryman. Seriously. He was cool. (H)
But even then when it's you even our arguments I can look back fondly. You really are like a (younger ;)) sister to me. Honestly. I know I can trust you with my entire life. :)
No matter how much you wish it. You're never gonna lose me. ;D
There's also a load more people I could write entire paragraphs about and such. But I'm kind of pressed for time at the minute. So a special mention :D:
Hannah:
Yes, we haven't always seen eye to eye. Yes, we've had some pretty serious arguments. But I'd just like to say you're amazing. I really do wish you happiness and I really do hope we don't lose contact. Even though these past few months have been hard for everyone, you've still regularly asked how things were over WLM, made sure I was doing okay, updated me on stuff. Seriously, if it wasn't for you my psychology coursework would totally still be an F. ;)
So, yeah. Thank you! :D
That's all /for now/ folks. I better get some revising done! :D :D
...Fun. 8-)
"This age is rolling around at the speed to the end.
It has crossed the border-line and disappointment and hope battle with each other,
We can never return to the place we used to be."
So, I'm pretty sure I didn't mention the result of my:
a.) College interview
b.) Blood/water results
c.) Everything else.
So, first off, I had my college interview...weeks ago. It went well! I have a place as long as I get my five Cs, easy! I already have two. XD
So. I'm going to work really hard now. :)
Now, my doctor's appointment went well, everything is fine. :)
Everything else...
I got an A for my English lit coursework so I'm really, really pleased with that. So thank you, Sarah, for all your help! :D
Currently I'm reading Of Mice and Men. But I realised I left it in the car. Damn. I'll just focus on poetry and maths until then. XD
There's actually...not a lot of interesting things going on at the minute other than revision.
I went to Maria's party on Saturday and it was fun! I danced. Yes. I danced...badly. Actually can you really call that dancing~?? I think not.
Let's see...I danced with...
Maria, Charlotte, Laura, Abbey, Marisa, Andrew...then...maybe Stef and Hannah? I can't remember. Way too many people. ^o)
But yeah. I made Maria cry (sorry!!!!!) I have a knack at making people cry. :D
Like when I told Sarah she needed chemotherapy. :)
She loves me really...!
So...Maria's party is covered. Now onto revision?
So I've decided that from now onwards. I'm going to dedicate myself to saying "Adieu" to the past five years of my life. I'm saying goodbye to that school, a lot of people as well.
But. I definitely don't wanna see my friends go. Seriously. Never ever. :(
Definitely I'm going to keep in touch with Maria and Laura. Then I'm wanna keep in touch with Charlotte...Dani...Hannah...all the brilliant people I've met, there's too many people to name.
So...now it's time for the emotion-fest. XD
Laura:
I've known you since you pushed me off a bench. We've been friends ever since, yeah, we've fallen out. I've been a jerk. But you've always been for me in the end. :)
You're one of people who makes me laugh the most and puts me in a permanent good mood.
I think you've made the past five years a really good time for me. I shall never stop bugging you. :D
Maria:
Maria, seriously. Where to start? XD
We've been friends for a...a long time and we've been through a lot. You've been there for me a hell of a lot too, and you've made me the person I am today. Like I've said before: you're beautiful inside AND out. There's so many happy memories with you for me. Particularly the quarryman. Seriously. He was cool. (H)
But even then when it's you even our arguments I can look back fondly. You really are like a (younger ;)) sister to me. Honestly. I know I can trust you with my entire life. :)
No matter how much you wish it. You're never gonna lose me. ;D
There's also a load more people I could write entire paragraphs about and such. But I'm kind of pressed for time at the minute. So a special mention :D:
Hannah:
Yes, we haven't always seen eye to eye. Yes, we've had some pretty serious arguments. But I'd just like to say you're amazing. I really do wish you happiness and I really do hope we don't lose contact. Even though these past few months have been hard for everyone, you've still regularly asked how things were over WLM, made sure I was doing okay, updated me on stuff. Seriously, if it wasn't for you my psychology coursework would totally still be an F. ;)
So, yeah. Thank you! :D
That's all /for now/ folks. I better get some revising done! :D :D
...Fun. 8-)
"This age is rolling around at the speed to the end.
It has crossed the border-line and disappointment and hope battle with each other,
We can never return to the place we used to be."
Tuesday 21 April 2009
Is this an early blog for once?!
Hello!
So, just a little update for you all, there's not much news actually, but I feel like ranting. :)
I had a blood test Monday, I'm not sure if I said. But it was awkward.
I was hoping Lucy could come in with me, but apparently she wasn't allowed. So I had to brave it on my own. 笑
The nurse was actually nice, so that was good. Oh, and I was meant to fast, but no one told me. :D
It's a good job I hate eating breakfast. xD
So she's taken three blood samples and the results should be back by Friday which is when I have my next doctor's appointment.
Oh, and I'm PISSED.
Mark has had me entered for English literature, and I've been bugging him for ages about me not having the coursework for it. He's finally said that he has the coursework for me after like a month of me asking for it.
This means I have less than a week to complete the coursework unit for English lit, I have until Friday.
Also, I've gotta go up to school to pick it up and see Maddison at the same time today. Great.
Normally I wouldn't be bothered but less than a fucking week. What the FUCK?
So my week's schedule looks something like this:
Monday:
Blood test @ 3:00 PM
Tuesday:
Collect coursework @ 2:30 PM and then go down to the A-block and see Maddison
Wednesday:
Psychiatrist appointment @ 9:30 AM
Thursday:
It's looking like coursework day. :|
Friday:
Blood results back @ 3:30 PM
Now, it may seem like I'm complaining a little bit here, but you have to realise how truly pissed off I am about it.
So Monday was pretty much wasted, sure I did a little revision, had my blood tested then found out he couldn't get the coursework to me, I had to pick it up myself, even though I've been asking him for God knows how long.
The majority of today will be wasted. I'll be revising when I finish this blog and then I've got to go out at 2:00 PM and catch the bus so I get there for 2:30 PM then I've got to probably spend like 1h30 with Maddison. Oh yeah, my coursework is at an F because I followed the instructions. Fantastic.
Wednesday I'll be up at probably seven to catch the bus at some stupid time like 8:30 AM. Then I'll not get home for around 12:00 PM. So that will be fun, fun, fun!
So, out of this entire week it looks like Thursday is the only day that will allow me to work properly. No appointments.
So hopefully I'll be able to write the essay on a play I've never read/watched. ^_^
Great.
Friday also I have to go to the doctors for my blood results, hopefully everything is fine with that. But seriously. Why can't people be competent. If they wanted me to fast before the blood test it's not that hard to say to me 'Please don't eat for 24 hours before the appointment.'
People piss me off so much. ¬_¬
In HAPPIER news my sister bought me Mikado which are these little bread sticks coated in chocolate, they're the same things as the Japanese Pocky. They taste good.
ALSO I have more green tea which makes me happy. Green tea equals happy Joel.
Damn, I rant so much. XD
~Bye!
So, just a little update for you all, there's not much news actually, but I feel like ranting. :)
I had a blood test Monday, I'm not sure if I said. But it was awkward.
I was hoping Lucy could come in with me, but apparently she wasn't allowed. So I had to brave it on my own. 笑
The nurse was actually nice, so that was good. Oh, and I was meant to fast, but no one told me. :D
It's a good job I hate eating breakfast. xD
So she's taken three blood samples and the results should be back by Friday which is when I have my next doctor's appointment.
Oh, and I'm PISSED.
Mark has had me entered for English literature, and I've been bugging him for ages about me not having the coursework for it. He's finally said that he has the coursework for me after like a month of me asking for it.
This means I have less than a week to complete the coursework unit for English lit, I have until Friday.
Also, I've gotta go up to school to pick it up and see Maddison at the same time today. Great.
Normally I wouldn't be bothered but less than a fucking week. What the FUCK?
So my week's schedule looks something like this:
Monday:
Blood test @ 3:00 PM
Tuesday:
Collect coursework @ 2:30 PM and then go down to the A-block and see Maddison
Wednesday:
Psychiatrist appointment @ 9:30 AM
Thursday:
It's looking like coursework day. :|
Friday:
Blood results back @ 3:30 PM
Now, it may seem like I'm complaining a little bit here, but you have to realise how truly pissed off I am about it.
So Monday was pretty much wasted, sure I did a little revision, had my blood tested then found out he couldn't get the coursework to me, I had to pick it up myself, even though I've been asking him for God knows how long.
The majority of today will be wasted. I'll be revising when I finish this blog and then I've got to go out at 2:00 PM and catch the bus so I get there for 2:30 PM then I've got to probably spend like 1h30 with Maddison. Oh yeah, my coursework is at an F because I followed the instructions. Fantastic.
Wednesday I'll be up at probably seven to catch the bus at some stupid time like 8:30 AM. Then I'll not get home for around 12:00 PM. So that will be fun, fun, fun!
So, out of this entire week it looks like Thursday is the only day that will allow me to work properly. No appointments.
So hopefully I'll be able to write the essay on a play I've never read/watched. ^_^
Great.
Friday also I have to go to the doctors for my blood results, hopefully everything is fine with that. But seriously. Why can't people be competent. If they wanted me to fast before the blood test it's not that hard to say to me 'Please don't eat for 24 hours before the appointment.'
People piss me off so much. ¬_¬
In HAPPIER news my sister bought me Mikado which are these little bread sticks coated in chocolate, they're the same things as the Japanese Pocky. They taste good.
ALSO I have more green tea which makes me happy. Green tea equals happy Joel.
Damn, I rant so much. XD
~Bye!
Thursday 16 April 2009
I'm so lazy.
Hola!
I'm sorry for the major gap between my postings here, it's just every since I moved from MySpace's blog service, I always forget to check on here. Mainly because I'm really lazy.
So, with that out of the way I guess I can continue.
This week has been okay. I've somehow managed to get nothing constructive finished. Go me.
Although I plan on doing a lot of revision today and for the this week and, naturally, the following weeks.
So far, I've had 2 appointments with a psychiatrist, you have no idea how crazy that makes me feel. But things are going well, I'm undergoing a course of 6 weeks with an appointment a week.
Other than that I've had an appoint with my GP, I've got to go back on Monday to have a blood test. Yay.
Also, I have a college interview! Hurrah! Hope that goes well.
Aside from that life has been pretty average recently. So that's all well.
Actually I do feel a little mournful, not sure why. Oh well.
But aside from that, I recently discovered a new artist, she goes by the name of KOKIA, and she's a genius. Haha.
In fact she reminds me of Rurutia a little.
Also, I don't know if anyone who reads has a last.fm account, but my user is " furashubakku " in case you wanna add me or something.
So, yeah, just a quick blog to update y'all. I'll hopefully blog later.
P.S. I recently found 2 poems I'd written a while ago but had forgotten about. I might post them later, but probably not considering I have like 3 unfinished songs and 4 unfinished poems to deal with. I might just liquidize them eventually.
I'm sorry for the major gap between my postings here, it's just every since I moved from MySpace's blog service, I always forget to check on here. Mainly because I'm really lazy.
So, with that out of the way I guess I can continue.
This week has been okay. I've somehow managed to get nothing constructive finished. Go me.
Although I plan on doing a lot of revision today and for the this week and, naturally, the following weeks.
So far, I've had 2 appointments with a psychiatrist, you have no idea how crazy that makes me feel. But things are going well, I'm undergoing a course of 6 weeks with an appointment a week.
Other than that I've had an appoint with my GP, I've got to go back on Monday to have a blood test. Yay.
Also, I have a college interview! Hurrah! Hope that goes well.
Aside from that life has been pretty average recently. So that's all well.
Actually I do feel a little mournful, not sure why. Oh well.
But aside from that, I recently discovered a new artist, she goes by the name of KOKIA, and she's a genius. Haha.
In fact she reminds me of Rurutia a little.
Also, I don't know if anyone who reads has a last.fm account, but my user is " furashubakku " in case you wanna add me or something.
So, yeah, just a quick blog to update y'all. I'll hopefully blog later.
P.S. I recently found 2 poems I'd written a while ago but had forgotten about. I might post them later, but probably not considering I have like 3 unfinished songs and 4 unfinished poems to deal with. I might just liquidize them eventually.
Monday 30 March 2009
Good day! I've not blogged for a long while, which is strange, I used to blog almost bi-daily. I don't know when I became so lethargic!
Well, actually I guess I've not blogged because nothing interesting has happened recently.
The biggest news I have is that I apply for college, so I'm currently waiting for an interview date (lucky, eh?).
I think that's pretty much it, I know in a previous post I said that I was currently writing a short story, well, that has yet to come into fruition, it'll take a long time before my "mojo" kicks in again, because I'm currently having creative lag. This is also the reason I have 4 unfinished poems. So yay for that.
I know he'll obviously never read my blog, but I'm wishing Miyavi congratulations on getting married and hope he and his new wife, melody., have a long and fruitful relationship! Also, if the rumours are true, I hope that they have a healthy child! \^_^/
Oh, and I offer my (in)sincere lamentations upon THSK ranking badly in the ORICON, but I'm glad that Ayumi's NEXT LEVEL has topped the ORICON six days in a row! (I'm a geek, I know).
*Thinks*
I think that's pretty much all I have to say, I just thought I'd update people briefly on the goings on inside my head! Oh, I'm currently reading Jane Eyre again (I love that book).
I think~ that's it. Which reminds me, I need a job. :(
I want monies. :(
But yeah, bye!
Well, actually I guess I've not blogged because nothing interesting has happened recently.
The biggest news I have is that I apply for college, so I'm currently waiting for an interview date (lucky, eh?).
I think that's pretty much it, I know in a previous post I said that I was currently writing a short story, well, that has yet to come into fruition, it'll take a long time before my "mojo" kicks in again, because I'm currently having creative lag. This is also the reason I have 4 unfinished poems. So yay for that.
I know he'll obviously never read my blog, but I'm wishing Miyavi congratulations on getting married and hope he and his new wife, melody., have a long and fruitful relationship! Also, if the rumours are true, I hope that they have a healthy child! \^_^/
Oh, and I offer my (in)sincere lamentations upon THSK ranking badly in the ORICON, but I'm glad that Ayumi's NEXT LEVEL has topped the ORICON six days in a row! (I'm a geek, I know).
*Thinks*
I think that's pretty much all I have to say, I just thought I'd update people briefly on the goings on inside my head! Oh, I'm currently reading Jane Eyre again (I love that book).
I think~ that's it. Which reminds me, I need a job. :(
I want monies. :(
But yeah, bye!
Monday 23 March 2009
Stuff No-One Cares About
So, firstly, I wanna talk about "NEXT LEVEL" which is Ayu's tenth original album.
Yes, this means I'm going to try my hand at reviews. You lucky people. :P
So, the album starts with the song "Bridge to the sky" which is a calm intro with a slight rock-edge, it's semi-instrumental and really sets the mood for the next track.
(Composed by Nakano Yuuta who also composed Mirror(cle World), talkin' 2 myself, decision, and Marionette -prelude-).
Track two is the title track "NEXT LEVEL" and has a distinct summer feel reminiscent of BLUE BIRD, personally this is one of my favourite tracks of the album because the lyrics are really sweet. Although it's a pop song it still retains an original melody.
(Composed by D・A・I who is a personal favourite, he's composed many of Ayumi's songs including BLUE BIRD, SEASONS, Boys & Girls, Real me, Trauma, and monochrome).
The third track which is titled "Disco-munication" is actually pretty disco-sounding, it has a hard bass, synths, and (maybe) electric guitar. It's the first interlude of the album and it's completely instrumental, setting the techno-inspired scene for the next songs: EnergizE and Sparkle.
(Composed by CMJK who composed other interludes for Ayumi including The Judgement Day (GUILTY), Are You Wake Up? ((miss)understood), and a few songs: until that Day... and Over).
The forth track: "EnergizE" also carries off a techno sound, with an equally heavy bass and electronic sounds with harmonious synthesizers (I know nothing about music, obviously) it's a pretty good song even though it may take some getting used to as it is pretty different from Ayumi's previous songs, this also was composed by Nakano Yuuta.
"Sparkle", the fifth track of the album, is definitely one of my favourite Ayumi songs, fitting in with the previous two songs, it's clearly inspired by techno and infused with a dash of rock. Ayumi's vocals here are akin to Kumi Kouda's. So, yes, I have to say I'm slightly biased because I love it so much, if I was rating songs, this would easily get a 8. ;)
(Composed by Hara Kazuhiro who also composed Marionette, glitter (both GUILTY), STEP you ((miss)understood), Born To Be...(Secret), &c.).
"rollin'" is the sixth track and in my opinion one of the strangest (also the best). Starting with a keyboard intro that for some reason creeps me out as it reminds me of clowns it suddenly stops to introduce a beat (yet another bass heavy song), her lyrics in this change between natural and computerised, which is pretty cool in my opinion. For some reason this really reminds me of the 80s, I guess I can't really put my finger on it, but the chorus is amazing, I love it.
(Also composed by Nakano Yuuta, Nakano really comes into his element on this album imo）.
GREEN is yet another favourite and comes at track seven. GREEN has a vibrant spring feel to it and comes jam packed with Chinese instruments and reminds me of many of Ayumi's other 'Chinese' sounding songs such as Moments, Will, and vogue. I think this is yet another really original song from Ayumi.
I guess for me it marked a new era, her last album GUILTY seemed to be almost entirely dealing with loss and pain, then along came GREEN which literally reminds me of a budding flower.
(Composed by Yukumi Testuya who also composed (don't) leave me alone (GUILTY), Life (Mirrorcle World single), ((miss)understood).
Load of the SHUGYO is the eighth track and is the second instrumental, getting away from the disco elements (almost) this has some really heavy guitar riffs along with a beat which actually reminds me of the Australian didgeridoo. I don't know why, so it's best not to ask. This instrumental really helps take you from disco to Ayumi's rockier songs including identity and Rule.
(Composed by CMJK).
The ninth track is called identity and is Ayumi's first "rock" song of NEXT LEVEL, it's a good song in all, it reminds me of (don't) leave me alone a lot, especially in the chorus.
(Composed by Nakano Yuuta).
The tenth track and third single from the album is Rule, which is also the international theme for the new Dragon Ball theme. Rule is also a heavy rock song.
A running theme in NEXT LEVEL seems to be heavy bass, liberal usage of computers (as in voice masking and synths).
(Composed by Watanabe Miki who composed is this LOVE ((miss)understood) she also composed Kuu's song Butterfly).
LOVE 'n' HATE which is the eleventh track is also a strange song, I think from this album it is the rock song which stands out the most. The intro to this song is really really epic, and the first part of it kind of reminds me of STEP you, but then it quickly changes into something unique.
I absolutely love this song. :)
(This was also composed by Nakano).
The last instrumental of the album is Pieces of SEVEN which is track twelve. This also has an unusual sound, it reminds me somewhat of a rainy day, I don't know why I get that feeling from it, but it has a really nice calming effect to it which nicely links the rock songs to the ballads even though it does speed up a little to the end.
(Composed by HΛL who also composed some other interludes such as LABYRINTH (Secret), reBIRTH (GUILTY), &c.).
The thirteenth song is Days which to me seems like a wintry love ballad, a really sweet song but not one of my favourites sadly. I think that it's not a favourite due to Ayumi's preference to performing it live. :P
(Composed by Tago Kunio who seems to compose soley ballads including untitled ~for her~(GUILTY), Key (DUTY), Together When... (GUILTY), and SCAR (DUTY)).
The final song is called Curtain call which is a fitting title for the last track, this song is also a ballad, the lyrics are incredibly sweet and it's possibly the best ballad of the album. This song's lyrics remind me of Who... and the melody is also pretty simple. To my ears it sounds just like a piano and maybe a backing choir. I think that the simplistic sound is a wonderful way to go to the proverbial NEXT LEVEL. :P
(Composed by Hara Kazuhiro).
In all, I think this is possibly one of Ayumi's most original albums and also one of her best. I particularly like NEXT LEVEL, Sparkle, rollin', GREEN, LOVE 'n' HATE and Curtain call.
The singles from this album were GREEN, Days, and Rule. Although Sparkle, Curtain call and NEXT LEVEL also have PVs. I was glad to hear a more refreshing sound from Ayumi and also glad to know that Mirrorcle World was NOT on this album. ;)
Out of ten, I'd give this album about 8/10.
Nakano Yuuta really did fantastic in composing the majority of the songs and keeping the sound original. :)
~owari~
In other news!
Rurutia's new album Seirios is fantastic too.
But, I have a maths exam tomorrow (today?) so that should be FUN!
I finished reading The New Girl, the ending was a total anticlimax, seriously, rubbish. I was really disappointed. But I am now (re)reading Jane Eyre.
So yeah. Now I'm gonna go and finish some things! :D
Yes, this means I'm going to try my hand at reviews. You lucky people. :P
So, the album starts with the song "Bridge to the sky" which is a calm intro with a slight rock-edge, it's semi-instrumental and really sets the mood for the next track.
(Composed by Nakano Yuuta who also composed Mirror(cle World), talkin' 2 myself, decision, and Marionette -prelude-).
Track two is the title track "NEXT LEVEL" and has a distinct summer feel reminiscent of BLUE BIRD, personally this is one of my favourite tracks of the album because the lyrics are really sweet. Although it's a pop song it still retains an original melody.
(Composed by D・A・I who is a personal favourite, he's composed many of Ayumi's songs including BLUE BIRD, SEASONS, Boys & Girls, Real me, Trauma, and monochrome).
The third track which is titled "Disco-munication" is actually pretty disco-sounding, it has a hard bass, synths, and (maybe) electric guitar. It's the first interlude of the album and it's completely instrumental, setting the techno-inspired scene for the next songs: EnergizE and Sparkle.
(Composed by CMJK who composed other interludes for Ayumi including The Judgement Day (GUILTY), Are You Wake Up? ((miss)understood), and a few songs: until that Day... and Over).
The forth track: "EnergizE" also carries off a techno sound, with an equally heavy bass and electronic sounds with harmonious synthesizers (I know nothing about music, obviously) it's a pretty good song even though it may take some getting used to as it is pretty different from Ayumi's previous songs, this also was composed by Nakano Yuuta.
"Sparkle", the fifth track of the album, is definitely one of my favourite Ayumi songs, fitting in with the previous two songs, it's clearly inspired by techno and infused with a dash of rock. Ayumi's vocals here are akin to Kumi Kouda's. So, yes, I have to say I'm slightly biased because I love it so much, if I was rating songs, this would easily get a 8. ;)
(Composed by Hara Kazuhiro who also composed Marionette, glitter (both GUILTY), STEP you ((miss)understood), Born To Be...(Secret), &c.).
"rollin'" is the sixth track and in my opinion one of the strangest (also the best). Starting with a keyboard intro that for some reason creeps me out as it reminds me of clowns it suddenly stops to introduce a beat (yet another bass heavy song), her lyrics in this change between natural and computerised, which is pretty cool in my opinion. For some reason this really reminds me of the 80s, I guess I can't really put my finger on it, but the chorus is amazing, I love it.
(Also composed by Nakano Yuuta, Nakano really comes into his element on this album imo）.
GREEN is yet another favourite and comes at track seven. GREEN has a vibrant spring feel to it and comes jam packed with Chinese instruments and reminds me of many of Ayumi's other 'Chinese' sounding songs such as Moments, Will, and vogue. I think this is yet another really original song from Ayumi.
I guess for me it marked a new era, her last album GUILTY seemed to be almost entirely dealing with loss and pain, then along came GREEN which literally reminds me of a budding flower.
(Composed by Yukumi Testuya who also composed (don't) leave me alone (GUILTY), Life (Mirrorcle World single), ((miss)understood).
Load of the SHUGYO is the eighth track and is the second instrumental, getting away from the disco elements (almost) this has some really heavy guitar riffs along with a beat which actually reminds me of the Australian didgeridoo. I don't know why, so it's best not to ask. This instrumental really helps take you from disco to Ayumi's rockier songs including identity and Rule.
(Composed by CMJK).
The ninth track is called identity and is Ayumi's first "rock" song of NEXT LEVEL, it's a good song in all, it reminds me of (don't) leave me alone a lot, especially in the chorus.
(Composed by Nakano Yuuta).
The tenth track and third single from the album is Rule, which is also the international theme for the new Dragon Ball theme. Rule is also a heavy rock song.
A running theme in NEXT LEVEL seems to be heavy bass, liberal usage of computers (as in voice masking and synths).
(Composed by Watanabe Miki who composed is this LOVE ((miss)understood) she also composed Kuu's song Butterfly).
LOVE 'n' HATE which is the eleventh track is also a strange song, I think from this album it is the rock song which stands out the most. The intro to this song is really really epic, and the first part of it kind of reminds me of STEP you, but then it quickly changes into something unique.
I absolutely love this song. :)
(This was also composed by Nakano).
The last instrumental of the album is Pieces of SEVEN which is track twelve. This also has an unusual sound, it reminds me somewhat of a rainy day, I don't know why I get that feeling from it, but it has a really nice calming effect to it which nicely links the rock songs to the ballads even though it does speed up a little to the end.
(Composed by HΛL who also composed some other interludes such as LABYRINTH (Secret), reBIRTH (GUILTY), &c.).
The thirteenth song is Days which to me seems like a wintry love ballad, a really sweet song but not one of my favourites sadly. I think that it's not a favourite due to Ayumi's preference to performing it live. :P
(Composed by Tago Kunio who seems to compose soley ballads including untitled ~for her~(GUILTY), Key (DUTY), Together When... (GUILTY), and SCAR (DUTY)).
The final song is called Curtain call which is a fitting title for the last track, this song is also a ballad, the lyrics are incredibly sweet and it's possibly the best ballad of the album. This song's lyrics remind me of Who... and the melody is also pretty simple. To my ears it sounds just like a piano and maybe a backing choir. I think that the simplistic sound is a wonderful way to go to the proverbial NEXT LEVEL. :P
(Composed by Hara Kazuhiro).
In all, I think this is possibly one of Ayumi's most original albums and also one of her best. I particularly like NEXT LEVEL, Sparkle, rollin', GREEN, LOVE 'n' HATE and Curtain call.
The singles from this album were GREEN, Days, and Rule. Although Sparkle, Curtain call and NEXT LEVEL also have PVs. I was glad to hear a more refreshing sound from Ayumi and also glad to know that Mirrorcle World was NOT on this album. ;)
Out of ten, I'd give this album about 8/10.
Nakano Yuuta really did fantastic in composing the majority of the songs and keeping the sound original. :)
~owari~
In other news!
Rurutia's new album Seirios is fantastic too.
But, I have a maths exam tomorrow (today?) so that should be FUN!
I finished reading The New Girl, the ending was a total anticlimax, seriously, rubbish. I was really disappointed. But I am now (re)reading Jane Eyre.
So yeah. Now I'm gonna go and finish some things! :D
Wednesday 18 March 2009
Supporting Israel -- NOT the Gay Thing to Do
To-day I was on facebook browsing when I received a notification from a cause I joined a while ago on the topic of supporting decriminalisation of homosexuality within the UN. Now, this isn't what I'll be blogging about, but let's start with some GOOD news, eh?
So, the notification is an announcement regarding the Obama Cabinet's decision to sign the UN gay rights declaration which the Bush Cabinet refused to sign. You can read the full article here.
So, that's the good news over the way.
Next, in the same group I came across a post in the forum entitled "Supporting Israel: It's the Gay Thing to DO."
Now, a while ago I posted a blog on the subject of the Arab-Israeli conflict regarding an Israeli attack upon the Palestinian people where hundreds of civilians (mainly women and children) were shot by Israeli snipers.
This blog, along with photos a Palestinian had taken of the attack can be found here.
Now back to this article, this article was basically an article posted upon a news website called Gay Wired. This article basically talks about how fantastic Israel is due to its treatment of the LGBT community and how fantastic it is that they're being proactive against Gaza and can be found here.
I'd just like to say that a lot of homosexual people think that as long as a country has gay rights, then it's all good. I believe that this is a very wrong way to think, it's a very unsafe way to judge a country. Sure Israel has gay rights, sure Israel's cities have gay pride parades, sure Israel has all this but does this justify the killing of civilians?
I know that the Hamas have launched terrorist attacks upon Israel but I also know that the Israeli government have sponsored the killing of Palestinian civilians.
I think there is a distance between a "terrorist group" fighting for their land and a developed country killing women and children.
Of course Palestinian members of the GLBT community face punishment for their sexual orientation, and I don't condone that what-so-ever, but like someone commented saying
Of course it's unfair that homosexuals are treat terribly at the hands of Islamic nations, but isn't it also unfair that people are being persecuted for nothing at all at the hands of a developed nation? Aren't human rights there to protect all humans whether they're homosexual or straight, Muslim or Jew?
It makes me mad to see that "gay politics" seem more important to some people than basic human rights, human rights which have been denied to many Palestinians for more than forty years.
I realise that I know nothing about politics, but I do recognise unfair treatment and this is exactly what it is.
So, the notification is an announcement regarding the Obama Cabinet's decision to sign the UN gay rights declaration which the Bush Cabinet refused to sign. You can read the full article here.
So, that's the good news over the way.
Next, in the same group I came across a post in the forum entitled "Supporting Israel: It's the Gay Thing to DO."
Now, a while ago I posted a blog on the subject of the Arab-Israeli conflict regarding an Israeli attack upon the Palestinian people where hundreds of civilians (mainly women and children) were shot by Israeli snipers.
This blog, along with photos a Palestinian had taken of the attack can be found here.
Now back to this article, this article was basically an article posted upon a news website called Gay Wired. This article basically talks about how fantastic Israel is due to its treatment of the LGBT community and how fantastic it is that they're being proactive against Gaza and can be found here.
I'd just like to say that a lot of homosexual people think that as long as a country has gay rights, then it's all good. I believe that this is a very wrong way to think, it's a very unsafe way to judge a country. Sure Israel has gay rights, sure Israel's cities have gay pride parades, sure Israel has all this but does this justify the killing of civilians?
I know that the Hamas have launched terrorist attacks upon Israel but I also know that the Israeli government have sponsored the killing of Palestinian civilians.
I think there is a distance between a "terrorist group" fighting for their land and a developed country killing women and children.
Of course Palestinian members of the GLBT community face punishment for their sexual orientation, and I don't condone that what-so-ever, but like someone commented saying
My liberation is tied up with the liberation of any of the victims of oppression in the Middle East, whether they be queers under a murderously homophobic Islamic regime, or murderously homophobic Muslims under a murderously Zionist regime.I have to say that I completely agree.
Of course it's unfair that homosexuals are treat terribly at the hands of Islamic nations, but isn't it also unfair that people are being persecuted for nothing at all at the hands of a developed nation? Aren't human rights there to protect all humans whether they're homosexual or straight, Muslim or Jew?
It makes me mad to see that "gay politics" seem more important to some people than basic human rights, human rights which have been denied to many Palestinians for more than forty years.
I realise that I know nothing about politics, but I do recognise unfair treatment and this is exactly what it is.
Saturday 7 March 2009
2 New Poems
I guess this is my first post of being sixteen (yay).
Actually, being sixteen is just like being any other age, strange, but I guess it's when you're twelve and you're like 'I WANT TO BE THIRTEEN!' And then that's when the disappointment sets in when you realise being thirteen is just like being twelve but with extra responsibilities.
Even then, I guess I'm here with a purpose, what that purpose is I'm not really sure, but I would like to inform you people who read this (I doubt anyone other than Sarah reads this (comment me if you read!!)) that I'm currently writing prose, it's not very good prose, but it's prose all the same, in fact it's from a girl's point of view, because I am obviously a girl. ^_~
Actually, I might not even finish it, but I'd just like to tell you that.
I'm also nearly finished writing a children's book, which isn't very good. But even then, I'm only writing a children's book so I can get a qualification. So, hey-ho.
I might take photos when I'm finished, it's about Miss Sun and her quest for Mr Moon, it's good stuff, has a jellyfish and everything. ^_^
But yes, I also have two new poems which I shall post at the end.
I'd also like to say, I have a lot more time now, because I'm actually on a partial timetable at school. *rejoice*
Knowing this relaxes me a helluva lot more. So, I'll have more time to revise and sort things out, which isn't really important, but I thought I'd add that. ^_^
So, without further ado, I'd like to post the first of my two poems.
Actually, being sixteen is just like being any other age, strange, but I guess it's when you're twelve and you're like 'I WANT TO BE THIRTEEN!' And then that's when the disappointment sets in when you realise being thirteen is just like being twelve but with extra responsibilities.
Even then, I guess I'm here with a purpose, what that purpose is I'm not really sure, but I would like to inform you people who read this (I doubt anyone other than Sarah reads this (comment me if you read!!)) that I'm currently writing prose, it's not very good prose, but it's prose all the same, in fact it's from a girl's point of view, because I am obviously a girl. ^_~
Actually, I might not even finish it, but I'd just like to tell you that.
I'm also nearly finished writing a children's book, which isn't very good. But even then, I'm only writing a children's book so I can get a qualification. So, hey-ho.
I might take photos when I'm finished, it's about Miss Sun and her quest for Mr Moon, it's good stuff, has a jellyfish and everything. ^_^
But yes, I also have two new poems which I shall post at the end.
I'd also like to say, I have a lot more time now, because I'm actually on a partial timetable at school. *rejoice*
Knowing this relaxes me a helluva lot more. So, I'll have more time to revise and sort things out, which isn't really important, but I thought I'd add that. ^_^
So, without further ado, I'd like to post the first of my two poems.
Eden
Look to the distance,
A city boldly glows.
Look to the horizon,
A mountain surely looms.
Look to the future,
A vision shrouded in doubt.
Look to the past,
A lifetime of mistakes.
Look to the distance,
A desert is in front.
Look to the horizon,
A plain goes on for miles.
Look to the future,
A wilderness is there.
Look to the past,
An Eden bleakly stares.
Look to the distance,
A city boldly glows.
Look to the horizon,
A mountain surely looms.
Look to the future,
A vision shrouded in doubt.
Look to the past,
A lifetime of mistakes.
Look to the distance,
A desert is in front.
Look to the horizon,
A plain goes on for miles.
Look to the future,
A wilderness is there.
Look to the past,
An Eden bleakly stares.
Seasons
(Another poem regarding seasons).
Spring is upon us,
Once again life will buzz,
The world's cycle begins again,
As refreshing as a cool rain,
Colour infects the fertile soil,
Such is this mortal coil.
Summer warmth floods the air,
The favoured season without a care,
Golden yellow is greeted by,
A lightning blue which meets the sky,
The atmosphere simmers and boils,
Summer is the season without toils.
Autumn transitions new to old,
The heat becomes pleasant getting successively cold,
The dusk is dark, the candle starts to falter,
Scatter, scatter, the leaves plummet in a blur,
Illness comes, diseases go, in the air it's bitter sweet,
People fooled, the season lies, the comfort is transiently sweet.
Winter is here at the very end,
Beautiful cold, under the icy white branches bend,
Covered in blue into a melancholy mood people fall,
It seems much colder, like you've never felt cold at all,
The long awaited finale is here,
Despite the sadness of the present there'll soon be cheer.
(Another poem regarding seasons).
Spring is upon us,
Once again life will buzz,
The world's cycle begins again,
As refreshing as a cool rain,
Colour infects the fertile soil,
Such is this mortal coil.
Summer warmth floods the air,
The favoured season without a care,
Golden yellow is greeted by,
A lightning blue which meets the sky,
The atmosphere simmers and boils,
Summer is the season without toils.
Autumn transitions new to old,
The heat becomes pleasant getting successively cold,
The dusk is dark, the candle starts to falter,
Scatter, scatter, the leaves plummet in a blur,
Illness comes, diseases go, in the air it's bitter sweet,
People fooled, the season lies, the comfort is transiently sweet.
Winter is here at the very end,
Beautiful cold, under the icy white branches bend,
Covered in blue into a melancholy mood people fall,
It seems much colder, like you've never felt cold at all,
The long awaited finale is here,
Despite the sadness of the present there'll soon be cheer.
Tuesday 24 February 2009
Short blog
Hey!
So, this is my first "proper" blog in a while, there's not a lot to say actually.
Today I begun watching the drama adaptation of LIFE, I'm onto the fourth episode, it's really powerful and at times hard to watch.
For those of you who don't know what LIFE is, LIFE is a manga by Keiko Suenobu and it deals with a wide variety of issues, mostly bullying and self harm, the drama, however, doesn't include the self-injury.
LIFE is about a high school student named Ayumu and her descent into depression, starting with her best friend attempting suicide after Ayumu got into the school which she wanted to get into. Thus starts Ayumu's self-harm.
It deals mostly with depression, bullying, rape, and many similar topics.
The manga is fantastic and the drama really brings it to life (haha pun intended).
But, regardless of who you are and what your outlook is on things it makes me wonder "Hmm, should I have done that instead of what I did?"
I guess it makes you realise, just how bad bullying is in its many guises.
Suenobu's manga are always hard hitting and LIFE certainly is.
It makes me sad about a lot of things that I could've done different, things I could have said, and things I could've bit my tongue on.
But the past isn't worth talking about, isn't it the future we need to focus on? I think I should think about things a lot more.
I realise I can be an extremely selfish person, an extremely mean one too. But I try to better myself, even if I think it's useless to try.
But, back onto the subject, LIFE has to be one of the most powerful manga I've read in a long time, in fact it is the most powerful manga I've ever read.
I think that everyone should at least watch the drama or, even better, read the manga.
All though it's a shame that the manga hasn't yet been licensed in America.
It's the type of manga that after you've read a chapter you want to read more and you want to read until the character's end comes, whether it's a demise or a happy ending.
I think it's also useful in helping people realise what goes through the head or people who've been the victim of bullying, rape, etc. and who've fallen into the trap of self-injury.
But yeah, other than that, the day has been okay. I've managed to waste it again.
I'm feeling all right, a little under the weather though, I hope that I'll feel better soon.
Oh, by the way! I recently got promoted in the clan (in case you haven't notice, this is aimed at Sarah). So while you got promoted before me, I have an entire sub-forum to myself. Haha!
Actually it's hard work, I'll try my best though!
I guess this is all I have to report for now. So I guess I might blog later if something crops up. I doubt it will though.
Sarah reckons I should write a story. Isn't she silly? XD
I can't write at all. ^^
じゃ、またね～！
P.S. 恋しがる。 ^^;;
So, this is my first "proper" blog in a while, there's not a lot to say actually.
Today I begun watching the drama adaptation of LIFE, I'm onto the fourth episode, it's really powerful and at times hard to watch.
For those of you who don't know what LIFE is, LIFE is a manga by Keiko Suenobu and it deals with a wide variety of issues, mostly bullying and self harm, the drama, however, doesn't include the self-injury.
LIFE is about a high school student named Ayumu and her descent into depression, starting with her best friend attempting suicide after Ayumu got into the school which she wanted to get into. Thus starts Ayumu's self-harm.
It deals mostly with depression, bullying, rape, and many similar topics.
The manga is fantastic and the drama really brings it to life (haha pun intended).
But, regardless of who you are and what your outlook is on things it makes me wonder "Hmm, should I have done that instead of what I did?"
I guess it makes you realise, just how bad bullying is in its many guises.
Suenobu's manga are always hard hitting and LIFE certainly is.
It makes me sad about a lot of things that I could've done different, things I could have said, and things I could've bit my tongue on.
But the past isn't worth talking about, isn't it the future we need to focus on? I think I should think about things a lot more.
I realise I can be an extremely selfish person, an extremely mean one too. But I try to better myself, even if I think it's useless to try.
But, back onto the subject, LIFE has to be one of the most powerful manga I've read in a long time, in fact it is the most powerful manga I've ever read.
I think that everyone should at least watch the drama or, even better, read the manga.
All though it's a shame that the manga hasn't yet been licensed in America.
It's the type of manga that after you've read a chapter you want to read more and you want to read until the character's end comes, whether it's a demise or a happy ending.
I think it's also useful in helping people realise what goes through the head or people who've been the victim of bullying, rape, etc. and who've fallen into the trap of self-injury.
But yeah, other than that, the day has been okay. I've managed to waste it again.
I'm feeling all right, a little under the weather though, I hope that I'll feel better soon.
Oh, by the way! I recently got promoted in the clan (in case you haven't notice, this is aimed at Sarah). So while you got promoted before me, I have an entire sub-forum to myself. Haha!
Actually it's hard work, I'll try my best though!
I guess this is all I have to report for now. So I guess I might blog later if something crops up. I doubt it will though.
Sarah reckons I should write a story. Isn't she silly? XD
I can't write at all. ^^
じゃ、またね～！
P.S. 恋しがる。 ^^;;
Monday 23 February 2009
Commiserations and Commemorations
So, welcome to my new blog, which doesn't really have a name other than "Working Title," which sucks. In any case, with the opening of a new blog, I hope to be opening up a new era (the 2009 era) of my blogging. So I'll endeavour to blog in a more mature style and focus a little less on myself (which I doubt I will). But without further ado, I'll post all the poetry I can find, in this introductory post from my earliest work, to my most recent (so hopefully you'll see a maturation).
Untitled
This would be my first ever poem, it's actually a little embarrassing to re-read my work, but hopefully you'll disregard it as a mistake of youth. I'm not really sure what I was feeling (if anything) whilst writing it, but, here it is.
There was actually...Elizabethan English in this poem, but I took it out.
Shadows
So, this is another one I don't like, this time I've left the Elizabethan English in, but this is it in its unedited, raw form, before I rewrote it.
This would be my first ever poem, it's actually a little embarrassing to re-read my work, but hopefully you'll disregard it as a mistake of youth. I'm not really sure what I was feeling (if anything) whilst writing it, but, here it is.
There was actually...Elizabethan English in this poem, but I took it out.
The scars upon my arms,
The knife covered in my blood,
The pain that I inflict,
Giving some release, from a cruel world,
The death, the darkness, the wars than Man creates,
And if a God, did exist, surely he would try to intervene?
A cruel world and a "loving" God,
The suicide, the tragedy, the bitter, cruel remorse,
For things we wished to say but never did,
To which we could have gave our pride,
But now to you, I give my word,
The pain was short, and to you who hurt,
I was no one, so please forget,
Don't remember,
Don't regret,
The pain for me has now gone,
So for you why should it stay?
The knife covered in my blood,
The pain that I inflict,
Giving some release, from a cruel world,
The death, the darkness, the wars than Man creates,
And if a God, did exist, surely he would try to intervene?
A cruel world and a "loving" God,
The suicide, the tragedy, the bitter, cruel remorse,
For things we wished to say but never did,
To which we could have gave our pride,
But now to you, I give my word,
The pain was short, and to you who hurt,
I was no one, so please forget,
Don't remember,
Don't regret,
The pain for me has now gone,
So for you why should it stay?
Shadows
So, this is another one I don't like, this time I've left the Elizabethan English in, but this is it in its unedited, raw form, before I rewrote it.
Thou art condemned to leave, sad, lonely and heart broken
At Thy wake the devil shalt dance, at thy birth the world did die
Loved by no one
Hated by all
Thee lay to sleep but no dreams come
For thou art harassed by the shadows of thy room
The emptiness that was created far too long ago.
Every shadow, a different lie.
Every shadow another one dies.
The knife by the sink the bloody bed.
The life you took a falling star.
Shadows of the people that you hate
They hated you but now they die.
At the end what’s the point?
The touch of death
A banshee cry
Pain that fades
Regret that’s stays.
Talking shadows drive you insane
People scream what do you gain?
You swore never to let your hate show
But now they know
Where will you go?
Your life in ruins
The one you love
Everything you stood for then
Was nothing important?
How did you change?
At Thy wake the devil shalt dance, at thy birth the world did die
Loved by no one
Hated by all
Thee lay to sleep but no dreams come
For thou art harassed by the shadows of thy room
The emptiness that was created far too long ago.
Every shadow, a different lie.
Every shadow another one dies.
The knife by the sink the bloody bed.
The life you took a falling star.
Shadows of the people that you hate
They hated you but now they die.
At the end what’s the point?
The touch of death
A banshee cry
Pain that fades
Regret that’s stays.
Talking shadows drive you insane
People scream what do you gain?
You swore never to let your hate show
But now they know
Where will you go?
Your life in ruins
The one you love
Everything you stood for then
Was nothing important?
How did you change?
Deathly Silence
I guess you could say this is my first ever narrative poem, first of many. I guess this is yet another depressing poem. It was inspired by (Don't Fear) The Reaper.
I guess you could say this is my first ever narrative poem, first of many. I guess this is yet another depressing poem. It was inspired by (Don't Fear) The Reaper.
Deathly silence covered that room...
Where laughter and love once bloomed...
Something happened, something changed
Nothing that, no-one could explain
A mysterious disease which no cure hath been found
Three words could've summed up their feelings for each other
Their pride was too high, they would never ever say
But the price of that was of what I tell in this
She held the razor on her milk-like skin
A tear dropped from her beautiful eye
She whispered what those three words were
"I love you...” she then held on her hands were trembling
She signed the contract for the Devil's law
She pressed on hard and screamed out loud
No one was there, and no one heard
Her last dying words were uttered slowly
"He doesn't feel the same way about me"
Her lips went pale her head fell limp.
The room died with her final breath.
As he walked up to the door, he rapped it twice
No one heard, he knocked real loud, but still not a sound
Calling clear but still to no prevail he tried the door
To find it open, as it creaked no one came to greet him in
He yelled her name, the one of whom he had his secret love
His face was puzzled and worried too but he boldly walked to her bedroom door
He clutched the frame going pale; he screamed with shock, “No this can’t be true”
He ran to her side when he saw the blood, he saw the razor about her wrist
He held her close as if she slept, but he couldn’t accept her suicide.
Tears escaped out of his eyes “How could this happen?! I love her so…”
He hit the floor to pick up the blade bared his soul n’ ran it down his wrist
He held her closer and kissed her cheek, as he drifted in and out, this terrible state.
His soul was spared with lack of pain, when the curtains blew, and the lights flickered
Much like their life…
Where laughter and love once bloomed...
Something happened, something changed
Nothing that, no-one could explain
A mysterious disease which no cure hath been found
Three words could've summed up their feelings for each other
Their pride was too high, they would never ever say
But the price of that was of what I tell in this
She held the razor on her milk-like skin
A tear dropped from her beautiful eye
She whispered what those three words were
"I love you...” she then held on her hands were trembling
She signed the contract for the Devil's law
She pressed on hard and screamed out loud
No one was there, and no one heard
Her last dying words were uttered slowly
"He doesn't feel the same way about me"
Her lips went pale her head fell limp.
The room died with her final breath.
As he walked up to the door, he rapped it twice
No one heard, he knocked real loud, but still not a sound
Calling clear but still to no prevail he tried the door
To find it open, as it creaked no one came to greet him in
He yelled her name, the one of whom he had his secret love
His face was puzzled and worried too but he boldly walked to her bedroom door
He clutched the frame going pale; he screamed with shock, “No this can’t be true”
He ran to her side when he saw the blood, he saw the razor about her wrist
He held her close as if she slept, but he couldn’t accept her suicide.
Tears escaped out of his eyes “How could this happen?! I love her so…”
He hit the floor to pick up the blade bared his soul n’ ran it down his wrist
He held her closer and kissed her cheek, as he drifted in and out, this terrible state.
His soul was spared with lack of pain, when the curtains blew, and the lights flickered
Much like their life…
Shadows
This is the rewritten version of Shadows.
This is the rewritten version of Shadows.
Leaving behind the past condemned by every lie
Shattering a heart made of tempered glass.
A funeral prophecy, where devils dance in a blood covered sty
Shadows of a past, it happened in a room not known by him, far too long into the past
It haunts the sleep with ungodly fear
This is the result of emptiness of too long ago in a black atmosphere
Chorus:
Shadows of your past mistakes
They found a knife beside the bed
The covers were covered in a blood of which guilt makes
The life that was took, no-one even knew, knew they were dead
Shadows of the guilty fate
Manifested from that hate
On the step a banshee cried
No-one listened that’s the end
Pain that faded
Regret which stayed
Now this fate the clergyman laid
Chorus
Bridge:
The talking shadow of sanity’s bane
A lonely scream not to be heard
For what happened that fateful night
No-one died and no-one knew
Shattering a heart made of tempered glass.
A funeral prophecy, where devils dance in a blood covered sty
Shadows of a past, it happened in a room not known by him, far too long into the past
It haunts the sleep with ungodly fear
This is the result of emptiness of too long ago in a black atmosphere
Chorus:
Shadows of your past mistakes
They found a knife beside the bed
The covers were covered in a blood of which guilt makes
The life that was took, no-one even knew, knew they were dead
Shadows of the guilty fate
Manifested from that hate
On the step a banshee cried
No-one listened that’s the end
Pain that faded
Regret which stayed
Now this fate the clergyman laid
Chorus
Bridge:
The talking shadow of sanity’s bane
A lonely scream not to be heard
For what happened that fateful night
No-one died and no-one knew
&
This is...a strange poem, I really don't like it, but I think that it will show my "poetic growth."
I also just renamed it.
This is...a strange poem, I really don't like it, but I think that it will show my "poetic growth."
I also just renamed it.
& I’m sat here, alone and typing this.
& I’m thinking, so… this is love
& yeah, this must be love, yeah that feeling they all rave about
& so I sit here thinking, love is complicated, I’m happy then sad…
& then I’m happy and depressed, and my heart is caving in
& then… you save me… yeah that’s the word, save me from me
But… I can’t say how I feel, it’s complicated… like & I can’t express it…
But I’ve never felt like this… and I’ve never known this && I’m not used to this…But I’ll try… &…and for you…
The feelings come and question my heart… &…& would I want to be with her for the rest of my life…? And I know the answer… I couldn’t imagine this, and I want it to happen and I want to be with her… I want to be with her until… &…Till death I do part… and how could I ever show it…? I mean, how much you mean to me, and express my true feelings much more easily, There’s no words to describe you, and there’s no simile to compare you, and there’s nothing but to do, but tell you often && share this life with you…
& I can do this… because… I love you…
& I’m thinking, so… this is love
& yeah, this must be love, yeah that feeling they all rave about
& so I sit here thinking, love is complicated, I’m happy then sad…
& then I’m happy and depressed, and my heart is caving in
& then… you save me… yeah that’s the word, save me from me
But… I can’t say how I feel, it’s complicated… like & I can’t express it…
But I’ve never felt like this… and I’ve never known this && I’m not used to this…But I’ll try… &…and for you…
The feelings come and question my heart… &…& would I want to be with her for the rest of my life…? And I know the answer… I couldn’t imagine this, and I want it to happen and I want to be with her… I want to be with her until… &…Till death I do part… and how could I ever show it…? I mean, how much you mean to me, and express my true feelings much more easily, There’s no words to describe you, and there’s no simile to compare you, and there’s nothing but to do, but tell you often && share this life with you…
& I can do this… because… I love you…
Frozen Inside
This is the start of my semi-decent poetry.
This is the start of my semi-decent poetry.
Empty inside, a frozen figure
This ice can never melt
The furnaces of Hell couldn’t melt this screen
Shutting out the world
Seeing from the frosted glass
Distance is all but one
Of these symptoms to be froze in time
To be lost in direction
Not a compass of a map will free this statue’s still
Nothing, no nothing, for he is far too empty inside.
This ice can never melt
The furnaces of Hell couldn’t melt this screen
Shutting out the world
Seeing from the frosted glass
Distance is all but one
Of these symptoms to be froze in time
To be lost in direction
Not a compass of a map will free this statue’s still
Nothing, no nothing, for he is far too empty inside.
(Together) Always and Forever
On this long and deadly road
We tread so carefully
Many trails in our way much like a tragic ode
Many hindrances faced just like a stormy sea
But… together we should make it
This long and deadly path
The trails life will throw as me however
They shall be no problem if you are here with me.
Although our paths have crossed
Maybe they shall meet once more.
Together we could face these trails that this heart has lost
Together always and forever we’ll mend more heart that’s sore
Together always and forever…
We tread so carefully
Many trails in our way much like a tragic ode
Many hindrances faced just like a stormy sea
But… together we should make it
This long and deadly path
The trails life will throw as me however
They shall be no problem if you are here with me.
Although our paths have crossed
Maybe they shall meet once more.
Together we could face these trails that this heart has lost
Together always and forever we’ll mend more heart that’s sore
Together always and forever…
Sunrise
I tried my had at acrostic poetry, and I think it turned out pretty well.
I tried my had at acrostic poetry, and I think it turned out pretty well.
S - Swarms of colour flood the earth
U - Underwater glistens colours so sublime
N - New romantics watch the sun, as it glows on their lovers skin
R - Rise and shine as the cockerels crow, screaming out their mighty roar
I - Indecision in the air, the alarm clock rings giving off a scare
S - Showers flood the tiled floor, the drain of to the sewage core
E - Every morning that passes by the sunrise is quite a high
U - Underwater glistens colours so sublime
N - New romantics watch the sun, as it glows on their lovers skin
R - Rise and shine as the cockerels crow, screaming out their mighty roar
I - Indecision in the air, the alarm clock rings giving off a scare
S - Showers flood the tiled floor, the drain of to the sewage core
E - Every morning that passes by the sunrise is quite a high
Day after Day
Another sun-related poem, written at the same time as "Sunrise," which was when I was staying up all night with Maria.
Another sun-related poem, written at the same time as "Sunrise," which was when I was staying up all night with Maria.
As sunrise appears beyond the drowsy horizon
As the nation wakes up a million screaming clocks
Getting up to face another day, another con
Another day, another day, leading to another knock
As the sun sets, everybody forgets they events of their day
At least they try, to cast away the nightmare of reality
As the clock strikes 12 many people pray
For strength for more callouses...
To face another day
As the nation wakes up a million screaming clocks
Getting up to face another day, another con
Another day, another day, leading to another knock
As the sun sets, everybody forgets they events of their day
At least they try, to cast away the nightmare of reality
As the clock strikes 12 many people pray
For strength for more callouses...
To face another day
Seasons
I actually entered this into a competition, needless to say I didn't win. ^_^
I actually entered this into a competition, needless to say I didn't win. ^_^
The world all around us
Changes as we speak
The four seasons give the year a buzz
Starting in December
Cold, dark and wet
This season is Winter
When everything is asleep
The second starts in March
Getting warmer, the sun comes out to play
This season is Spring, with the rain your never parched
This is when you hear the lambs they bleat all through the day
halfway into the year the third begins in June
the weather is now very hot, never cloudy weather
this is known as Summer the holidays start soon
travel to Blackpool, and see everyone crowd together
The year has almost ended, and the last season begins in September
It’s starting to get colder now the trees have lost their leaves
This is called Autumn and it’ll soon be December
Time for you to go to school and roll up your sleeves.
Changes as we speak
The four seasons give the year a buzz
Starting in December
Cold, dark and wet
This season is Winter
When everything is asleep
The second starts in March
Getting warmer, the sun comes out to play
This season is Spring, with the rain your never parched
This is when you hear the lambs they bleat all through the day
halfway into the year the third begins in June
the weather is now very hot, never cloudy weather
this is known as Summer the holidays start soon
travel to Blackpool, and see everyone crowd together
The year has almost ended, and the last season begins in September
It’s starting to get colder now the trees have lost their leaves
This is called Autumn and it’ll soon be December
Time for you to go to school and roll up your sleeves.
Lithium
I guess this is more of a song? I don't know, it was coupled with one whose working title was "My Emo Cloud," which never got finished and I don't actually remember it.
I guess this is more of a song? I don't know, it was coupled with one whose working title was "My Emo Cloud," which never got finished and I don't actually remember it.
The summers light
It has been devoured by the fall
And these thick black clouds
The are crying acid tears
Chorus:
So dose me up on Lithium
'Cause I can't stand it anymore
Give me my overdose of Lithium
My favourite drug
The days are much more colder
Without your radiant smile
And now I've lost your gentle touch
Chorus
My mind is vaccant and useless
No way to find my love
Among the deep dark waters
And up in the castles of the skies
Chorus
Now...I won't ask once more
Give me my lithium
My overdose...
Of Lithium...
It has been devoured by the fall
And these thick black clouds
The are crying acid tears
Chorus:
So dose me up on Lithium
'Cause I can't stand it anymore
Give me my overdose of Lithium
My favourite drug
The days are much more colder
Without your radiant smile
And now I've lost your gentle touch
Chorus
My mind is vaccant and useless
No way to find my love
Among the deep dark waters
And up in the castles of the skies
Chorus
Now...I won't ask once more
Give me my lithium
My overdose...
Of Lithium...
Kimono
This was actually a commision, which I don't do often, but anyway, I wrote it for my friend Gemma, but it's widely considered my best ever poem. It's a narrative poem, by the way.
This was actually a commision, which I don't do often, but anyway, I wrote it for my friend Gemma, but it's widely considered my best ever poem. It's a narrative poem, by the way.
Long ago:
They fluttered around Gion like flowers in the breeze,
The long furisode of the maiko once scraped along the ground,
The hanamachi were odorous with the smell of sakura incense,
All this beauty, hidden behind the fragile veil of flowers,
The mysterious world, covered in secrets not to comprehend.
Who could have foresaw, the tragedy that befell this peaceful life?
The crumble and decay of this delicate existence,
The panic and furore that was caused in this intimate land,
The tragedy exposing the thousand year old antiquity
And at this point, things were never the same again
Legends of the East, brought back to the West
Never understood, not meant to be questioned
Now the furisode and elegant kimono are legends of the past
The Gion hanamachi full of urban promise, full of ghostly past
A long-lived veil, snatched from the ephemeral times
What could the island of the East do, but bow to the West?
Embracing change like the fleeting transition of winter into spring
This is the culture of the Geisha, the mystery of Japan
Rare but not eradicated
Seen but only misunderstood
The hanamachi of today, still weave this sacred world
More steadily and carefully, as the veil grows thinner still
Waiting 'till the day the Noh mask finally breaks
They fluttered around Gion like flowers in the breeze,
The long furisode of the maiko once scraped along the ground,
The hanamachi were odorous with the smell of sakura incense,
All this beauty, hidden behind the fragile veil of flowers,
The mysterious world, covered in secrets not to comprehend.
Who could have foresaw, the tragedy that befell this peaceful life?
The crumble and decay of this delicate existence,
The panic and furore that was caused in this intimate land,
The tragedy exposing the thousand year old antiquity
And at this point, things were never the same again
Legends of the East, brought back to the West
Never understood, not meant to be questioned
Now the furisode and elegant kimono are legends of the past
The Gion hanamachi full of urban promise, full of ghostly past
A long-lived veil, snatched from the ephemeral times
What could the island of the East do, but bow to the West?
Embracing change like the fleeting transition of winter into spring
This is the culture of the Geisha, the mystery of Japan
Rare but not eradicated
Seen but only misunderstood
The hanamachi of today, still weave this sacred world
More steadily and carefully, as the veil grows thinner still
Waiting 'till the day the Noh mask finally breaks
Daemon
This was my first poem after roughly a year long hiatus. The name Daemon is the older form of "demon" before the "a" was dropped.
This was my first poem after roughly a year long hiatus. The name Daemon is the older form of "demon" before the "a" was dropped.
With the first beads of blood, the first broken skin,
Like a sinister requiem entwined in sin,
Caught in the midst of a lethal masquerade,
A release from the anguish of putting on this façade,
How many times have I played this game?
Of spiritual torment, my life answer still the same,
This unnatural addiction --
A sole communication to the man who isn't there,
For everyone else to stare,
Living like a shadow held in repugnance,
Like a demon in its stance,
Liar and a fake, crying for pity,
Lying through my teeth,
"Pay me no attention,
It's not even like you care", I seethe,
Naught but malediction flows --
Through these malignant veins,
Pouncing like a lion,
Preying like a wraith,
All I am -- a bane.
Like a sinister requiem entwined in sin,
Caught in the midst of a lethal masquerade,
A release from the anguish of putting on this façade,
How many times have I played this game?
Of spiritual torment, my life answer still the same,
This unnatural addiction --
A sole communication to the man who isn't there,
For everyone else to stare,
Living like a shadow held in repugnance,
Like a demon in its stance,
Liar and a fake, crying for pity,
Lying through my teeth,
"Pay me no attention,
It's not even like you care", I seethe,
Naught but malediction flows --
Through these malignant veins,
Pouncing like a lion,
Preying like a wraith,
All I am -- a bane.
Malignancy
Malignancy is version two of Daemon, much like Shadows.
Malignancy is version two of Daemon, much like Shadows.
With the first beads of blood,
The first broken skin,
Like a sinister requiem entwined in sin,
Caught in the midst of a lethal masquerade
A release from the anguish of putting on this façade
How many times, have I played this game?
Of spiritual torture, my answer still the same
This unnatural addiction
A sole communication to the man who isn't there
Full on the outside, so everyone can stare
Living like a shadow, held in repugnance
Like a demon in its stance
Liar and a fake,
Crying for pity, lying through my teeth
I seethe words of "Pay me no attention --
Not even like you care."
Naught but malediction flows through these malignant veins
Pouncing like a lion, preying like a wraith
Only just a bane
Flowing out a river of crimson
A lake jealousy
A pond of pain
The first broken skin,
Like a sinister requiem entwined in sin,
Caught in the midst of a lethal masquerade
A release from the anguish of putting on this façade
How many times, have I played this game?
Of spiritual torture, my answer still the same
This unnatural addiction
A sole communication to the man who isn't there
Full on the outside, so everyone can stare
Living like a shadow, held in repugnance
Like a demon in its stance
Liar and a fake,
Crying for pity, lying through my teeth
I seethe words of "Pay me no attention --
Not even like you care."
Naught but malediction flows through these malignant veins
Pouncing like a lion, preying like a wraith
Only just a bane
Flowing out a river of crimson
A lake jealousy
A pond of pain
Salix
Originally titled "Willow," I changed the name to Salix, which means the same.
Originally titled "Willow," I changed the name to Salix, which means the same.
Sat inside a willow tree
Bending in the wind
Branches twisting, winding to the sky
A stark comparison to our way of life
Rigid, towering like a silhouette of pines
'Grow this way, not that way'
Surrounded by wires
To guide us up to God
One path to follow
No where to grow
Struck by lightning
Up in flames
No room to bend,
Only to break
Trapped in a shape
That's solitary and right
Much unlike the graceful willow
Sculptured down below
Branches break
Then they heal
Struck by Jove's arrows
They aren't hurt
Bending ever upwards
Slowly into heaven
Sure it took a while
Of course there were mistakes
Room for change
Patience from growth
Unlike the stubborn pine --
Ever zealous; no mistakes
And thus the weeping willow
Mourns the pine unto this day
Bending in the wind
Branches twisting, winding to the sky
A stark comparison to our way of life
Rigid, towering like a silhouette of pines
'Grow this way, not that way'
Surrounded by wires
To guide us up to God
One path to follow
No where to grow
Struck by lightning
Up in flames
No room to bend,
Only to break
Trapped in a shape
That's solitary and right
Much unlike the graceful willow
Sculptured down below
Branches break
Then they heal
Struck by Jove's arrows
They aren't hurt
Bending ever upwards
Slowly into heaven
Sure it took a while
Of course there were mistakes
Room for change
Patience from growth
Unlike the stubborn pine --
Ever zealous; no mistakes
And thus the weeping willow
Mourns the pine unto this day
Eternal Conflict
This is probably my most powerful poem, on par with Kimono, it's also my favourite, it's written about the Arab-Israeli Conflict, particularly in response to the Israelian offensive on the civillians of Gaza, in which (mostly) women and children were gunned down by Jewish snipers.
This is probably my most powerful poem, on par with Kimono, it's also my favourite, it's written about the Arab-Israeli Conflict, particularly in response to the Israelian offensive on the civillians of Gaza, in which (mostly) women and children were gunned down by Jewish snipers.
Enjoy another slice of toast,
Whilst Palestine awakes, to yet another human roast,
Hum your favourite songs,
As Israel is committing, even more wrongs.
Is it just, that the Muslims are being killed by the thousand?
Was it just that the Jews were shipped of to Poland?
Build a wall around Gaza and blow them to bits!
Brick the Jew in the ghetto, next they'll be sent to Auschwitz!
Isn't it sad that a boy, just sixteen years of age,
Hears of the news, immediately feels nothing but rage?
The Jews returned to Zion, and want even more,
I've seen the evil, amidst all the gore.
It's all very well, dreaming of peace,
Our very own Government, has sided with a beast,
Speak out 'gainst Israel, you're anti-Semitic,
Don't side with the Muslims; don't be altruistic.
Really we're given, one of two choices, side with the enemy,
Or be part of the remedy,
Dr. Sam, nurse Britannia prescribe ethnic cleanse.
After all, these are Muslim, public enemy of our lens.
The fact is simple, the truth is pretty clear,
Their children are living, under Jewish sniper range,
Do realize it is Israel, not Palestine we should fear?
Whilst Palestine awakes, to yet another human roast,
Hum your favourite songs,
As Israel is committing, even more wrongs.
Is it just, that the Muslims are being killed by the thousand?
Was it just that the Jews were shipped of to Poland?
Build a wall around Gaza and blow them to bits!
Brick the Jew in the ghetto, next they'll be sent to Auschwitz!
Isn't it sad that a boy, just sixteen years of age,
Hears of the news, immediately feels nothing but rage?
The Jews returned to Zion, and want even more,
I've seen the evil, amidst all the gore.
It's all very well, dreaming of peace,
Our very own Government, has sided with a beast,
Speak out 'gainst Israel, you're anti-Semitic,
Don't side with the Muslims; don't be altruistic.
Really we're given, one of two choices, side with the enemy,
Or be part of the remedy,
Dr. Sam, nurse Britannia prescribe ethnic cleanse.
After all, these are Muslim, public enemy of our lens.
The fact is simple, the truth is pretty clear,
Their children are living, under Jewish sniper range,
Do realize it is Israel, not Palestine we should fear?
Snow
Heh, I guess this was really more of an experiment than anything, I've always loved Dr Zeuss, in fact I was brought up reading his stories, so I thought I'd try my hand at it.
Heh, I guess this was really more of an experiment than anything, I've always loved Dr Zeuss, in fact I was brought up reading his stories, so I thought I'd try my hand at it.
One bitter morning, the snow came down,
The weather acerbic, it relentlessly fell all around,
The once green lawns, were smothered in white,
The entire village was just inviting frostbite.
It seemed to them all that winter had finally come,
This long ancient wish, true it had become!
It fluttered, it flurried for five whole days,
The villagers walked to and fro' in such a cold daze.
One day the committee gathered together,
They talked, bickered, and agreed, cursing the weather,
'Something, O' something, must be done!' this was the issue, decided upon.
They merrily concurred, and argued some more 'But what? And how?' Could it be nature had won?
The lambs and the cows were not getting fat, the butchers grew angry and really quite red,
The carrots and potatoes wouldn't even grow, 'Too cold for potatoes? How will we be fed?'
The doctors were swamped, the nurses engaged,
Every professional was at home sipping chicken soup, they couldn't work while their ruddy cold raged.
Schools were closed, by the avalanche of pearly cold,
Children were home running a temperature so bold,
Old people were getting seriously ill,
People were now starting to lose their good will.
Then when it had been, firmly two weeks,
A young man called Peter, who was a seller of antiques,
Decided that it was him, only he who could help,
This poor little village who if could would yelp.
He constructed a machine, roughly like a car,
It was huge and quite scary, after all, this is a story fetched far,
So he invented this thing, which had no real name,
And he actually didn't know if it would be of aid or would maim.
He concluded in his thoughts that he would have to test it out,
So he drove to the mountains, following the snowy route,
He drove and he drove, until the summit he reached,
Stopping the vehicle, he let himself out, his car was so white, it was as if it was bleached.
He unbuckled the rather ugly machine,
He pulled on the gear stick and heard a low scream,
The thing on the front, shaped like a claw,
Gathered up snow, much like a paw.
The snow he had gathered, he put in the monster's boot,
He cleared the mountain, and headed back down the route,
Arriving in town, he went to the lawyer's home,
They talked and they talked to details the size of tooth combs.
Next he wandered over to the newspaper foundry,
The next morning they woke, to find a box with a red boundary,
The article read, in a font so bold,
Ask Peter Pilfer to clear your garden of snow, he charges just 1,000 gold.
Welcome to Capitalism, girls and boys,
Where the patent means no one can play with that toy,
Now didn't this story, have a rather random end?
And I don't think you realised, four pointless minutes you've spent
I guess, that's it for my welcome to Blogger thread, I have other poems that I would have included, except they were actually extremely unfinished.
The weather acerbic, it relentlessly fell all around,
The once green lawns, were smothered in white,
The entire village was just inviting frostbite.
It seemed to them all that winter had finally come,
This long ancient wish, true it had become!
It fluttered, it flurried for five whole days,
The villagers walked to and fro' in such a cold daze.
One day the committee gathered together,
They talked, bickered, and agreed, cursing the weather,
'Something, O' something, must be done!' this was the issue, decided upon.
They merrily concurred, and argued some more 'But what? And how?' Could it be nature had won?
The lambs and the cows were not getting fat, the butchers grew angry and really quite red,
The carrots and potatoes wouldn't even grow, 'Too cold for potatoes? How will we be fed?'
The doctors were swamped, the nurses engaged,
Every professional was at home sipping chicken soup, they couldn't work while their ruddy cold raged.
Schools were closed, by the avalanche of pearly cold,
Children were home running a temperature so bold,
Old people were getting seriously ill,
People were now starting to lose their good will.
Then when it had been, firmly two weeks,
A young man called Peter, who was a seller of antiques,
Decided that it was him, only he who could help,
This poor little village who if could would yelp.
He constructed a machine, roughly like a car,
It was huge and quite scary, after all, this is a story fetched far,
So he invented this thing, which had no real name,
And he actually didn't know if it would be of aid or would maim.
He concluded in his thoughts that he would have to test it out,
So he drove to the mountains, following the snowy route,
He drove and he drove, until the summit he reached,
Stopping the vehicle, he let himself out, his car was so white, it was as if it was bleached.
He unbuckled the rather ugly machine,
He pulled on the gear stick and heard a low scream,
The thing on the front, shaped like a claw,
Gathered up snow, much like a paw.
The snow he had gathered, he put in the monster's boot,
He cleared the mountain, and headed back down the route,
Arriving in town, he went to the lawyer's home,
They talked and they talked to details the size of tooth combs.
Next he wandered over to the newspaper foundry,
The next morning they woke, to find a box with a red boundary,
The article read, in a font so bold,
Ask Peter Pilfer to clear your garden of snow, he charges just 1,000 gold.
Welcome to Capitalism, girls and boys,
Where the patent means no one can play with that toy,
Now didn't this story, have a rather random end?
And I don't think you realised, four pointless minutes you've spent
I guess, that's it for my welcome to Blogger thread, I have other poems that I would have included, except they were actually extremely unfinished.
Friday 20 February 2009
一般動詞
So verbs I shall know by the end of this year are:
「あ
会う・あう・To meet
開ける・あける・To open
上げる・あげる・To give/raise
遊ぶ・あそぶ・To play
ある･To be/have (inanimate)」
「い
言う・いう・To say
生きる・いきる・To live
行く・いく・To go
いただく･To receive (humble)
いらっしゃる・To go/come/be (humble)
いる・To be
入れる･いれる・To put in」
「う
動く・うごく・To move/change
産む・うむ・To produce
生む・うむ・To give birth
売る・うる・To sell」
「お
起きる・おきる･To get/wake up
教える・おしえる・To teach/tell
思う・おもう・To think
下りる・おりる・To get off
泳ぐ・およぐ・To swim
終わる・おわる・To end/finish」
「か
買う・かう・To buy
飼う・かう・To possess (animals)
返る・かえる・To return
かかる・To take (time)
書く・かく・To write
かける・To ring (someone)
貸す・かす・To lend
借りる・かりる・To borrow/rent
通う・かよう・To commute
考える・かんがえる・To think about/to consider」
「き
聞く・きく・To listen/ask
決める・きめる・To decide/fix/choose」
「あ
会う・あう・To meet
開ける・あける・To open
上げる・あげる・To give/raise
遊ぶ・あそぶ・To play
ある･To be/have (inanimate)」
「い
言う・いう・To say
生きる・いきる・To live
行く・いく・To go
いただく･To receive (humble)
いらっしゃる・To go/come/be (humble)
いる・To be
入れる･いれる・To put in」
「う
動く・うごく・To move/change
産む・うむ・To produce
生む・うむ・To give birth
売る・うる・To sell」
「お
起きる・おきる･To get/wake up
教える・おしえる・To teach/tell
思う・おもう・To think
下りる・おりる・To get off
泳ぐ・およぐ・To swim
終わる・おわる・To end/finish」
「か
買う・かう・To buy
飼う・かう・To possess (animals)
返る・かえる・To return
かかる・To take (time)
書く・かく・To write
かける・To ring (someone)
貸す・かす・To lend
借りる・かりる・To borrow/rent
通う・かよう・To commute
考える・かんがえる・To think about/to consider」
「き
聞く・きく・To listen/ask
決める・きめる・To decide/fix/choose」
これは僕のPURANよ。
My current goal: Finish everything (I'll start this tomorrow!)
My short term goals:
Get at least 5 Cs, I don't care about any other grade, just the magic Cs, once I'm in college GCSEs mean nothing. Duh.
I WILL get a C in maths. So fuck you dyscalculia.
Get into Barnsley College (I even know what I'm doing ^_^).
Get a job.
Long term plans:
Get at least two As and a B in college (preferably AABB).
Apply for the School of Oriental and African Studies in London (offers Japanese Language BA and Japanese MA degrees)
Apply for the University of Sheffield (offers Japanese Studies BA w/ Immersion).
Apply for the University of Leeds (offers Japanese Language w/ Linguistics ^_^).
Hopefully get into SOAS (I really want it).
(Try and transfer to a Japanese university completely).
Stay on at university to do a Master's degree in Japanese Literature.
Random goals:
Meet these:
Siobhan, Sarah, Kaiyla, and Riah.
(I've been thinking of teaching in the USA).
I might add more. But as the title says: 「これは僕のプラン。」
My short term goals:
Get at least 5 Cs, I don't care about any other grade, just the magic Cs, once I'm in college GCSEs mean nothing. Duh.
I WILL get a C in maths. So fuck you dyscalculia.
Get into Barnsley College (I even know what I'm doing ^_^).
Get a job.
Long term plans:
Get at least two As and a B in college (preferably AABB).
Apply for the School of Oriental and African Studies in London (offers Japanese Language BA and Japanese MA degrees)
Apply for the University of Sheffield (offers Japanese Studies BA w/ Immersion).
Apply for the University of Leeds (offers Japanese Language w/ Linguistics ^_^).
Hopefully get into SOAS (I really want it).
(Try and transfer to a Japanese university completely).
Stay on at university to do a Master's degree in Japanese Literature.
Random goals:
Meet these:
Siobhan, Sarah, Kaiyla, and Riah.
(I've been thinking of teaching in the USA).
I might add more. But as the title says: 「これは僕のプラン。」
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