野に咲く花のように

On Monday my exams start, well, not just mine, everyone's.

To tell the truth, I'm really nervous about them. I think I'll do okay though.
After I finish this blog, I'm going to revise so much. I'll revise all day Saturday and Sunday too.

After my fourth exam I can breathe a little, but then back into the fray with more exams. Should be fun, right?
Well, I'm going to try my hardest because I have something to work towards.

I've realised that I can finally connect with Gackt's song "No ni Hana Saku no you ni" which translates to "the flowers blooming in the field."

Now that I'm so close to leaving I can almost taste it. Every breath is filling my lungs more and more with the scent of it. Haha.

The lyrics are very nostalgic. Very melancholy.

"No one has engraved their name in the ground beneath the cherry trees,
So let's make a promise,
To come back here someday and do that.
Like the flowers that bloom in the corner of the school yard,
Where the echoing of the school bell can be heard,
I want to express to you, who smiled gently for me,
A simple 'Thank you.'
One of these days, we'll meet here again.
Until that day...
I want you to grow strong, and never give up,
Like the flowers that bloom in the field.

The road we got so used to walking down,
And the scenery we got so used to seeing,
With a smile on your face, and tears in your eyes,
You said 'I'll remember them forever.'
We got used to always seeing, the setting sun colouring the rows of cherry trees.
And as we began to walk to the future,
We'll hold onto each and everyone of these memories in our hearts.
Until you reach the place you envisioned,
Don't ever give up.
You are flowers yet to be named,
But I want you to grow stronger and never give up no matter what."

There's more, but that's the really sad part. Haha. It's a coincidence considering that there's now a line of cherry-blossom trees outside school. o.O

So, yes. I'm feeling a little nostalgic. Strangely enough I'll miss that place, even though I've already left. I think I'll miss the people more than anything.
They say that as you grow older, you find yourself in different social groups, I think it's very true. It makes me wonder just how many of my friends I'll still be in touch with.

Different circumstances, different goals, different dreams, different paths.

But I don't think I'll ever forget anyone, even if we do eventually part. Haha.
That's an overly sad way to look at things, right?

Even so, sometimes it's good to be pessimistic, eh? XD

In other news, I'm totally in love with Gackt again. I think I'm gonna marathon him for a few weeks mainly to get his play count further up along my last.fm charts. XD

I think that's it. Hopefully I'm going to get to finish some poetry later. I feel in the mood for writing a "good bye" poem. XD

"It was the end of your dream, and the start of everything."

Wow. Have I really not blogged since April? Gosh. Well, I have a long update for you (lucky or what?)!

So, I'm pretty sure I didn't mention the result of my:
a.) College interview
b.) Blood/water results
c.) Everything else.

So, first off, I had my college interview...weeks ago. It went well! I have a place as long as I get my five Cs, easy! I already have two. XD
So. I'm going to work really hard now. :)
Now, my doctor's appointment went well, everything is fine. :)
Everything else...

I got an A for my English lit coursework so I'm really, really pleased with that. So thank you, Sarah, for all your help! :D

Currently I'm reading Of Mice and Men. But I realised I left it in the car. Damn. I'll just focus on poetry and maths until then. XD

There's actually...not a lot of interesting things going on at the minute other than revision.

I went to Maria's party on Saturday and it was fun! I danced. Yes. I danced...badly. Actually can you really call that dancing~?? I think not.
Let's see...I danced with...

Maria, Charlotte, Laura, Abbey, Marisa, Andrew...then...maybe Stef and Hannah? I can't remember. Way too many people. ^o)
But yeah. I made Maria cry (sorry!!!!!) I have a knack at making people cry. :D
Like when I told Sarah she needed chemotherapy. :)

She loves me really...!

So...Maria's party is covered. Now onto revision?

So I've decided that from now onwards. I'm going to dedicate myself to saying "Adieu" to the past five years of my life. I'm saying goodbye to that school, a lot of people as well.

But. I definitely don't wanna see my friends go. Seriously. Never ever. :(

Definitely I'm going to keep in touch with Maria and Laura. Then I'm wanna keep in touch with Charlotte...Dani...Hannah...all the brilliant people I've met, there's too many people to name.

So...now it's time for the emotion-fest. XD

Laura:
I've known you since you pushed me off a bench. We've been friends ever since, yeah, we've fallen out. I've been a jerk. But you've always been for me in the end. :)
You're one of people who makes me laugh the most and puts me in a permanent good mood.
I think you've made the past five years a really good time for me. I shall never stop bugging you. :D

Maria:
Maria, seriously. Where to start? XD
We've been friends for a...a long time and we've been through a lot. You've been there for me a hell of a lot too, and you've made me the person I am today. Like I've said before: you're beautiful inside AND out. There's so many happy memories with you for me. Particularly the quarryman. Seriously. He was cool. (H)
But even then when it's you even our arguments I can look back fondly. You really are like a (younger ;)) sister to me. Honestly. I know I can trust you with my entire life. :)
No matter how much you wish it. You're never gonna lose me. ;D

There's also a load more people I could write entire paragraphs about and such. But I'm kind of pressed for time at the minute. So a special mention :D:

Hannah:
Yes, we haven't always seen eye to eye. Yes, we've had some pretty serious arguments. But I'd just like to say you're amazing. I really do wish you happiness and I really do hope we don't lose contact. Even though these past few months have been hard for everyone, you've still regularly asked how things were over WLM, made sure I was doing okay, updated me on stuff. Seriously, if it wasn't for you my psychology coursework would totally still be an F. ;)
So, yeah. Thank you! :D

That's all /for now/ folks. I better get some revising done! :D :D

...Fun. 8-)

"This age is rolling around at the speed to the end.
It has crossed the border-line and disappointment and hope battle with each other,
We can never return to the place we used to be."